Feel like disappearing ,
It have been 2yrs since I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder . Even before that I was disturbed and was in trouble a lot but no one noticed my disability to get socialize and get along with people. In this past 2yrs I’ve cut my wrist had excessive of sleeping pills in the thought of attempting suicide several times I’ve visited many psychiatrists and had many counselling session but the thing I was lacking was good food nice ambience and a great company and also I was and is in a relationship but I’m making him unhappy and I was not consoled when I badly needed love coz I was non expressive most of the time . I haven’t shown him or anyone the real me suffering from this though of ending my life .
The best way to overcome your disorder is to treat it. Because after you do this, it will be ONLY YOU who will feel free from this and can let go all these thoughts, right? And, you will feel the taste and flavor of good food and after this pandemic visit greats café!
Don’t do something which isn’t in your best interest. You do have a life to live, to party, to dance to get everything you deserve! :)
In a relationship, both have to put in their efforts and considering he knows about this he should have been more supportive than what he is. Everyone isn’t expressive, and its alright. You don’t have to loose the REAL YOU for anybody else including your boyfriend. Anyone who stands by you at your lowest is the one who will stand with you in any damn situation. Think, does he? Is he making me feel better about myself? Is he helping with my illness and giving me hopes that I’ll be better soon?
If its a YES, yeye but if its a NO, rethink about your relationship.
I hope it helps you having hope even in these worst times. :)
He is quite understanding person only but I’m the one not utilizing it and it seems like I’m using him and not giving love and care
That’s great then. You will also give him all the support he needs. Right now, the foremost important thing is to care for yourself.
Always I feel guilty about my thoughts and action . I don’t have any pleasant memories so far. I’m full of negativity and it’s like hell. I can’t even gel with people who cares for me
it can happen considering you have Bipolar. You could have mood swings and it’s completely fine.
You are undergoing something and it takes a lot of efforts to battle with it.
You can do this too. As i said, talk to an expert regarding the same and you will feel much better than before and back to caring and loving your boyfriend and friends! :)
If you want So I think i can help you in it but there is conditions ad I am not very good in chit chat and specially this kind of treatment of self realisation so if you want we can connect on call so that I can able to understand your actual situation and accordingly will help you.
I don’t charge anything apart from your intentions, time, vision, and last the major one acceptance to learn with faith. Once you get the solution then you are free fly again.