Feel all alone.. nothing is working frankly i am also not growing and working. Not able to push myself or motivate myself to do things. feels Like Just sit in a room and do nothing talk to no one. Nothing is making me happy. Life is at zero and time is running away.

Feeling broken today. Even after so much hard work, couldn't get into my desired college. Although the one I got is good too, but I wanted the better one. I can't process this grief. Feeling like a failure even when my family is happy. I feel like my all dreams are crushed and life has finished. If I tell this to anyone, they taunt me for not being grateful, but I am not feeling that. How can one shove gratitude through one's throat?? Really can't think of anything.

Depression

Program 

3am Thoughts

We all need someone with whom we can be one hundred percent us. Somebody that quietly understands us. Someone who we can find shelter in their arms when the world is too much. Someone you can speak with in the language of silences. Someone whose heart is ready to accept you in whatever shape or form you come, bloody or pristine, happy or in tears, a place of peace and renewal. For me, that is you, and it fills me with so much gratitude that I have the miracle that you are to be my own unadulterated self with in the sweet acceptance of your embrace.


Coming Out

Glad to find out this site. Like I feel its specially for me. I love to listen to others. You can tell me anything in comments I am ready to talk. Very excited to see responses to this message. Have an amazing day. Lots of love dear...

Mental Wellbeing

I had a history of depression and anxiety because of infidelity and grief. I am cured and successful now. My problem is I lost attraction towards girls.. Chahe kitni bhi sundar and sexy ladki kyu na ho neither my heart gives signal nor my pen drive... I befriended a good looking working girl and waited for 2 months still I don't have any feelings...

Anyone knows the cause of this? How to fix this issue. I don't want to die asexual. 

Confusion

Today I met my long time gf, who is also my best friend. I had been going through a lot recently. I have written all about them in here. 

So, we had a direct conversation last night. She pointed out how I might be suffocating her. I would not say she was illogical. Our relation has become too one-dimensional and what I deduced is that she is looking for some change and also she is not that interested to talk to me anymore. The problematic part is I am really open for a honest and all saying conversation where no one will hide anything. I know she had been talking to her student for a long time now. I was waiting for her to tell me but she did not. I really want to trust her, but she is keeping a lot from me. I am giving her the space she is asking for. Maybe she will see me for who I am, the person who have been with her for a really long time. Or will she go for someone or something else? 

The last few weeks made me realize that holding on and expecting to be accepted is only adding to my misery. I love her, I can't deny that. And I will not interfere in the freedom she wants now. I need to work on myself. I will focus on myself. I can only take care of myself. Let life decide what happens next.



Self Esteem

My 2 moods are , wow I'm the most beautiful person in the world and bwahh I'm so ugly...

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