Everytime I think of the hurt you caused me I start getting panic attacks 
It pains just to recall the past 
And what hurts even more is the fear I have of having a worse future 
Anything could happen and I still wouldn't be able to fight you 
I will lose in life 
I wish I wasn't this weak 
I wish I didn't care about ur feelings
I wish I could also just shout without Caring
I wish I was stronger than this 
I wish I didn't breakdown so easily
I wish I wasn't alive to have to live with u 
I wish I could run away 
I wish I was happy

Sending you lots of healing and positivity

Yes i also going through it bad phase becz of her

Depression

I don’t know if this is just me but do you just look in the mirror and not recognize yourself anymore?

Body image

hey, soo there was this guy and we were friends for some time. we became very close and he confessed that he had feelings for me. I freaked out and said that I did not reciprocate the same but I still wanted to be friends. it has been more than a month now and he keeps avoiding me, I kinda feel guilty but at the same time, I am a bit hurt. 

Relationships

I am so done dealing with shitty and stupid people, ughhhh

Frustration

I've been working on repairing my relationship with food. These last weeks, I felt like I had finally, finally recovered. I'd stopped always looking for the lower calorie option. I deleted myfitnesspal, even stopped estimating calories. Over the holidays I told myself that I would allow myself to 'indulge,' and that it was okay to have a few more treats than normal. But today, after eating dessert after dinner- I just couldn't. stop. eating. And so I kept eating, even after having properly fed myself using the day. Now, I'm sharing this with people I don't even know because I don't know how to cope with the guilt. I just feel so weak, like I can't even control myself and like I'll never be able to have a normal relationship with food. I'm scared that I've lost all control, that I'll just gain weight because I'm disguising it as 'self love.' I'm so tired. What's wrong with me? 

Eating Disorder

Anyone up for instructions on dreams ? 

Dreams

Firstly, hello to you!  thanks for reading my sharing and pardon my grammar/ vocabulary errors.  I don't know how to start it because I'm the person that keep on hiding my feelings and thoughts about something even though it's hurt me. I really wish I can tell anything that makes me feel stressed to someone but nowadays it's kinda hard to find someone to share even they're my family, friends or teacher. I have problem with one teacher that teach me and not sure either me make mistake that make her not like me or it's just my feelings. This problem started last year at my college and me in first semester. I'm not so talkative person in class during teacher taught at front but I always gave feedback on what my teacher taught or said. 

But her so rarely or maybe you can count by fingers how many time she called my name when she sharing something. About giving compliment, I guess only 1 or 2 times she give to me. When she talking at Infront, I looked at her eyes, she not always looking at me not like my other classmates, she always looks around them. Yes I know I not always asking something about her course/subject and not so loud at class but I always do her task/assignment. 

Why she looks like she not really like me? The other classmates, if they not done her task or make mistake she will still nice to them but for me I feel like I'm not exist during her class. I always think " she don't see me?" When she ask question , I can answer that but I don't know if she not heard it or pretend not heard it. I just think positive because don't want keep negative thoughts to her. No matter how positive I am, deep inside my heart I feel so hurt so pain. Why teacher why you do this to me? Why all my classmates really fun when with you but why I have to pretending laughing out loud and happy during your class? It's so stressful and tired. I want to feel happy to during ur class like others. The most things I feel sad about you is when you devide us in group qand you said I'm doing nothing while actually I give my opinions and ideas about our topic essay but my member group not accept my ideas and they said it's not relevant but when we discussed, my ideas almost same like the correct answer and their answers were wrong. I hope anyone who read this can help me. I'm so confused about my feelings. It's make me not feeling happy to go college. Thanks for your time reading this long text.

Stress

Hey wanna be friends...
Let's talk about astronomy and how it is related to human feelings and emotions ...
And also marvel topics...Marvel fan here!!!!!
Also mystery books and criminal physiology,scientific world...
And about many different things in this world ..
This is RAVAN.....
No useless talks just learning about world and it's interests through friends 


Friends

I have this boy best friend whom I found in college first year and dated him for a month only lol 🥲 after that we stopped talking for a while and then we were talking again, we were casually talking about relationships and he said 'he only gets into a relationship with someone with whom it doesn't even matter if the relationship ends or not but with whom he wants the bond to last long he doesn't get into relationships with them' 
And i kinda thought maybe that's why we are still talking, and i like how he shares everything with me and he's way too comfortable around me. 
One evening he was way too irritated by everyone but called me just to talk, whenever he buys something he's always giving me a haul of what he got. 
One day I slept the whole day and the next day i asked him did you know how many hours i slept he said 'ummmm you didn't sent me any reel yesterday to I guess the whole day' and i was like okay he notices every little detail about me 🫢

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts