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everytime i sleep i have nightmares. they are of my mom. i dream of her killing herself at jail. i dream of her beating me. i dream of her abandonding me.
i keep seeing my father but he doesnt look at me he looks away and acts like im not in the same area as him.
he doesnt talk to me
hes left me
i used to be daddys little girl did everything with him.
i miss taking care of my siblings. i love them as if they are my own kids.
i keep praying and listening to k love, i keep trying but nothings helping me.
im tired of how the kids here think of me cuz they think they know who i am. but they dont know my story.
they dont know that i was homeless for months and had to do things just to get my sister a meal a day.
i did everything for her.
my body is aching because of the stress i have been through and what i am still dealing with
moms boyfriend got away with what he did to me.

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