Everything is a result of one's perspective. One's perspective is formed on the basis of their environment and situation. So one's perspective about you isn't the reality and your perception of things are not facts.            I found this quote somewhere, not able to find the person who said it, but I think this will help a lot of you guys to understand people. 

3am Thoughts

I missed my exam today because of reschedule and the funny thing is it was just me who missed it because apparently all of the 'friends' i thought I had weren't really my friend and they didn't care to drop me a message eventhough I told them I would be in the library. Fun fact- i travelled 1000 km just for this exam and now they're "sorry". Funny!

Failure

i thought we would be okay and happy alk the time but throughout the months i am really not feelings the connection i felt w him its just so overwhelming. love isnt supposed to be this overwhelming and painful. whenever i think abt him i feel a sudden pain in my heart and i dont feel happy. its not like he doesnt love me. its just he stopped trusting me w his issues and i thiink he started to build a walla b/w us. we were so happy and i just want to be happy again with him. i may not be understandin him well or maybe i just dont wanna understand from his point of view. i dont know whats wrong w me. ill try to understand him more. kaybe we need break and time to improve individually and then work on the relationship 









 understanding him well 

Relationships

Can anyone please talk to me? 

Ye raat nikalni itni mushkil kyu hai 

Insomnia

Okay so I am 19 and my bf is 20, he is from a "Punjabi" family and obviously they enjoyy a lot. Everybody in his family knows I'm his gf and they include me in everything possible. 

But uk my family is the opposite, we don't drink openly or travel a lot or have late night parties every alternate day. He does and I'm okay with it because obviouslyyyy his live, he has to enjoy it. I have other ways of enjoyment which are different. But  I just don't feel good when he doesn't update me on what he is doing, or where he is going. We have been in 100s of fights regarding this and all I say is I want nothing but just 3 updates, 1. Before you start getting ready, text me where you're planning to go 2. Text me when you're out of your house meaning you're about to drive and 3. When you reach the destination. 

Nothing more. But he doesn't even do that and he's like yr jldi jldi m the ye tha vo tha.  I am like how long does a text saying ki I'm out take???? 20 sec??

I am sitting at home idle, reading novels or watching series and I then start to overthink, and then he's like whenever we go out you do this. I mean... I've told you what I want .....

I don't know 

Boyfriend

Any mallus in the town?

Where's all telugu people.!? There used to be lot of them here.. 

Unara andi avar ana!? 

Confusion

Hey. I don't know if I'll be frequent here, but I was looking for a site where I can talk to people and this is the first that came up. So, I don't really know what to expect but....

Anyways, to the point. My mom started drinking again, and I really have no where to go to escape from it. She's been drinking my entire life, and always promises to quit after two or three visits to the hospital. But she always returns after a few months, and I'm so tired of thinking we're finally safe before smelling wine and seeing her stumbling blindly across the room while screaming obnoxiously. I've been hit, lashed at, pushed, called names, and I'm just so tired of waking up each morning to another fresh hell every day. I just want a stable maternal figure in my life, and knowing that I'll be yelled at to apologise for the moment I just barely snap at her after being pushed to the limit after all she's put me, my little sister, and my father through is just getting to be more and more of a burden on me. I'm tired. Even if she wasn't much better sober, I just want my actual mom back, since now I only ever see her drunk and just staring at me with this vacant, dead look in her eye and it makes me so uncomfortable and angry... It's wrong of me to say, and I apologise for this but sometimes I wish she'd just keel over dead so I can ask her "Was it worth it?" 

She always leaves me and my family a few months into her alchoholism (I forgot how many times she has), but always comes back within a few weeks - months because she can't afford to live on her own or something sprouts up and she needs to take care of us, leaving us to the same cycle over and over again. I really thought she'd left it behind this time, I really did. I just want it to stop. Really, my biggest fear is that I'll end up just like her one day and it's really just unbearable to think about. I wish I didn't have to say it, but I feel ashamed to have her as a mother.

Anyways, if you read this far, thanks. I don't really know what I'll get from this post (Even if get no response), but it was good to just be able to post this. Thank you.

-Jade

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