Everything is a mess, my career, my famiy, my friendship and my situationship

This is the point when you know about life. Take a deep breath and release all the thoughts from head as you release air. Because all these problems you mentioned are related to your existence and what's the use of these if you arent calm. Plz write down your problems and think about possible solution. I hope you will get out of this. ✨

3am Thoughts

my life is a mess

College

I feel numb, I am irritated all day if someone calls my name, but want someone to just text me or call me and check up on me! I have been sleeping all day! The dream I thought was finally getting to its way has lost its track for the third time and I have lost all my courage for anything in life. Idk what to do or want anymore! I just feel like running away but don’t have the courage yet! 

Life

Other

Finally things are better now and I feel relieved somewhat !


It’s just that starting to move on, not sticking with complicated things..

Sorry for my bad English . I'm 15 and I tired and sick with my life, nothing good ever happened, my exist just like a loop. Everyday I so tired and down, lacking of sleep, going to school and came back to home, the only thing i care now is preparing for the exams from school. My friends have bodyshaming me 2 or 3 days ago, I just hate myself and i can't help it, I'm worthless, stupid, fat. I'm not depression by any mean, i hate myself but i still wanted to live. I don't know what to do anymore, I've think about what to do but it's all hopeless for me, i wanted to live but i don't wanna live up this way. I don't have any interest in things that i once like to do, like drawing, playing music, now all i can do is watching my phone, my tv all day and get sad out off nothing. But right now, when I'm typing this, i just can't feeling my emotion anymore, i don't care about what happened around me, i don't know how to descipe my feeling now. I said I'm felt nothing but i still can feel the sadness or happiness around me. When i hanging with my friends I've always feel left behind, I'm afraid of being forgotten but still i don't care about it. I don't like myself and i want changed that, im thankful with the life I've gained but right now, I'm just so tired, I'm not sure what is that "tired" mean yet, i just know I'm tired. If you're reading this,thanks you alot and sorry for wasting your time.


Family

I wear a bracelet cause I love to.
But even that irritates me when it gets stuck on my forearm and I couldn't slide it back down to my wrist.

This is not about a bracelet :)

Getting sensitive makes life hard.

Exhausted

Tell me what to do, with all these constant screaming inside my head? Now I am sure of it. That only I can hear it. The world around seems oblivious!

I am 19 and my family wont let go of me.

I struggle so much with depression and .. ideation. Especially during the pandemic since just when i was starting to be okay with myself, everything changed. There was so much change. Therapy is too expensive for me so i cant do it consistently. Recently ive tried to be brave and go back to school after a 2 year break. Ive been trying to go back to art too. Ive been focusing on taking care of myself but recently ive been realizing all this is futile if i have no hold of my own life. I knew something is seriously wrong with me and how i view myself bc when i finally made some art after such a long time, i liked it a lot, then when i tried to make another thing literally right after, i couldnt bring myself to finish it. Its literally a sketch right next to a finished pieced. My hand was shaking and there was a voice at the back of my head telling me i am not an artist, i cant draw, im not a real creator, even if i made a really good piece literally just minutes ago. It was right in front of me. Ive been creating even during my whole hiatus yet i still view myself like this. I knew i needed change. Change of pace, change of environment. But i cant have that without my family's approval, without independence. 

Ive been trying to gradually ease their minds into the idea of letting me commute, at least teaching me how to so that i hhav more options than theyre giving me. But they cant let me go, especially my dad. I think hes struggling with this a lot. But its killing me so much, i cant do anything. I am so stuck. They arent prioritizing this because they dont take it seriously enough. I feel llik i am only living for them at this point. Ive tried everything i could do for myself within the house, but i need change and ive needed this for a while now. What should i do? 

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