Everyone wants explanation , everyone questions me for anything I do .    

Next time when a situation comes where you think you don't want to answer them just say "I'm not obliged to answer your question".

Exhausted

I don't know which law is said that , writing down your problems and half the jobs is solved.
I am feeling very low today. Things I have believe in so hardly not turns out the way it should be. I have good friends who understand me very well. But over the time , I feel that isn't working anymore. Obviously when you ask for favor to your friend and you owe a favor to them. I am in stage where i can figure out who is my friend indeed and who is just pretending to be. I let me give you a incident what my friends are doing with me , last night we went out for drink. One of my friend was voice recording in his phone , when I found that he was voice recording me for blackmail purposes. I was talking about one of my friend's ex-girlfriend who was my friend. That clever guy was recording all that.

Anger Issues

खुद को कैसे संभालू में टूट कर बिखर सा गया हूं अपनों को अपने ही है जलाते चाहत में जिनकी जलसा गया हूं😔

3am Thoughts

Me and my girlfriend were sexting and I ruined it 
It's became a usual night time thing by now 
She lives with her strict parents 
And our relationship is yet a secret to her family 
This night we were sexting as usual I asked for her "those-photos" (We already are familiar with each other) and she understandably couldn't because her bathroom was preoccupied in the middle of the night and she can't turn the lights on in her room 
So she told me so 
We were really in the moment 
This was not the first time this happened but today it kins of came in as a turn off 
I couldn't be horny any more 
I told her so and I guess I ruined our night for not only here me as well 
I feel so horrible about it

Relationships

craving a conversation 

I just want to shout , cry out loud , speak all the things I have kept inside me and treated like nothing which I didn't deserved ,been through depression and still trying to come out of it been so silent and I just want to shout , still I feel like maybe this is it for this life as you have tried so much ... till here..

Life

I always feel i am stuck somewhere.....

i just realized how low i view my self worth as. 

The worst thing you can even be in your life is being Sensitive & guess what, a sensitive guy.
You feel everything, yet you feel nothing.

People are so caring for others, but they don't give a shit about your emotions, even if you give your 200% to everything.
Even the tiniest thing could trigger, disturb, and ruin you. But you know what? Those tiny things could make me fly, could give me genuine happiness.

I'm sensitive, I observe how you interact, how you think, what you think, your eyelashes, your lips, your eyebrows, even that small mole next to your earlobe, I see everything, I notice everything, I remember everything.
I remember how you touched me on the 19th of Dec, 2023. or that first met, when you complimented my dress. I remember everything.

My post might sound like "girly" stuff because that's what people think about me before they know my gender. Or that's what people think in real life, that I'm just too soft, too polite, too kind.
But let me tell you one thing, these are not "girly" stuff, these are just emotions, ways to talk, write, and express.

Why?
Why are we not sensitive towards a guy's emotions?

And yesssss, a lot of guys are emotional, that's a very natural thing, but most (or maybe all) of them never express, never talk, never show. They die a million deaths, before the real one. They can't even cry openly, or even secretly.
They heaviness, you can't ever understand the heaviness guys carry inside, especially around families, parents, love, you never know, or might never know.
We don't have 10+ DMs waiting for our replies for the next coffee. No. We just have 3 chats, whom we care about. Who matters to us, and it breaks our hearts when they break it.

I'm not saying guys are all glittery, perfect, emotional. No. I'm saying they are also*.


So if you have any guy, whom you care about, whom you love, who falls into this category. 
Hug him, 
hold him tightly, 
allow him to be comfortable, 
tell them you love him, and don't just say, act. 
Listen to them, the way you want someone to listen to you. 
Care about them, the way you want him to care for you. 
Trust him, 
show faith, 
show love, the real one. For us the sensitive one we get it when someone is genuine, and we get it if they pretend.
Don't treat them as shit, they aren't.
Don't use them.
Don't use them to heal yourself, or to pass your time. Please don't.

And if you are sensitive..
I know how deeply, and intensely we feel. How small things matter to us, how the expectations - exponentially grow with the close ones, how broken we feel - yet can't express. The embarrassment, shame, guilt, etc, etc. I know it all. I feel it all. All I can offer you right now, is love, deep love. Hug your blanket, your cushion tightly, feel the love for yourself, and I'll pray you get someone who reciprocates the same for you


PS: I might have mixed up, sensitive guys, myself, guys in general, emotional guys, here & there. Toh jo jaha shi se fit ho rha ho, maan lena, because I'm very tired to correct myself, like really really tired, mentally exhausted. Because?.... Yeah, you get it, I'm a sensitive guy,

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