Everyone deserves love,help and support,not guilt-trips. We all deserve to feel like our lives are worth living for our own sake.

saatvik

Affirmations

Memories do fades away 😔

Memories

Just something random i worte lol (idk why there's a trigger warning i can't take it off)

how you’ve been ?
i'm still the same as back then
loving you is all that i can
and i see you in all those faces 
you’ve left too many traces
and i hate everything about me 
whenever i'm with someone else
cuz I’ll never feel the same with them 
nothing will go back to how it used to be
cuz there won’t be more of you and me

how you’ve been?
i'm still the same as back then
i can’t put a period nor an end

we were ruined by insecurities and fear
but i realized that I’d rather bleed to death with you 
then not to have you near 
so if you still want 
we can do everything we planned
we can escape and withstand

but nothing is all it meant

right?


Poetry

I am having problems remembering things about people . I get connected and then forget what all we talked about and forget who is that person unless i am reminded or read the previous texts . 

My hard drive is failing since years ...... Not just about people ...... I forget other things too ...... I take screenshots to remember and those screenshots are then rarely opened . 
Maybe the cache is full ? 

3am Thoughts

“it’s always been you” 
“i couldn’t bring myself to hurt you because you are literally everything to me. hurting you would hurt me” 
“if it’s not me and you, it’s you with someone else and the thought of that drives me insane” 
“you don’t realize the place you take in my life. it’s crazy in the best way” 
“we’re endgame” 
“i’ll be back for you, i pinky promise” 

all things you said to me, remember? just lies and i hate myself for believing you. do you remember how we never once broke a pinky promise to each other? we made that pact when we were 15 and maybe it’s childish but it was the one thing we never did even now that we are 20, and you broke it. you left me, told me to wait, so i did, you told me to not find anyone else, so i didn’t. how could i? it was supposed to be you. and then i find out you’re with someone else, just a few months after. apparently i didn’t mean as much to you as i thought or as much as you made me believe. you hurt me not only because you moved on so quickly but because you lied to me so many times knowing how hard it was for me to trust. and you will never know just how bad you hurt me, but i forgive you because despite it all, i think i’ll always care for you. 

People deserve your whole heart and if you can't give them that, it's better they know.

I wonder where are you now? it’s been more than a decade and you probably don’t even remember me. Although I never said a word you never left my side, you were the only one to offer me a hand while everyone else turned their back on me. I hated that place, all the kids were cruel and used to make me cry but you changed them and you changed me. The moment you defended me everyone changed their attitude immediately. I didn’t know you had that kind of power since you didn’t have many friends either, I didn’t know you had that kind of courage since you always used to be pretty quiet. You used to ask me why i wouldn’t talk to you, you used to ask me if i didn’t like you, if you had done something to upset me, I never answered your questions, I never said “hi” back, you probably never heard my voice at all. Do you wanna know what got me so quiet? the truth is i was mesmerized by the darkness of your eyes.  All i could do was stare at them and wonder what i had done to deserve you, everyone taught me i didn’t deserve to be loved but you showed me love even tho i never reciprocated it. You showed me love just because you simply cared and without expecting anything back. I couldn’t talk to you and i was afraid you’d leave me eventually, that you’d get tired of waiting just like everyone else, that you’d get bored… But you never seemed to mind, you enjoyed my company and offered me company, we never had a conversation yet we used to hang out everyday like best friends. You were my first love. Sometimes I wonder what’s your life been like? You could be a completely different person, you could live in another country, you could even not be here at all, i’d never know and that makes me sad sometimes, only sometimes. 

Reminder ✨

Stop finding hope at hopeless places
See things as well people as they are..
Stop giving justification for their mistreatment
they know what they did...

- Queen 👑

Personal Growth

Do you feel like... not having pics of a life event make it more memorable for u?

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