Everyday is a lesson either learn from it or live with it......... Good morning

Motivation

Donot i repeat donot make decisions when you're excited or angry 

3am Thoughts

Am I the only one who don't remember my childhood I don't remember the good memories but I remember how people were treating like a shit when I was 7-8 it's weird I don't even know why I'm writing this here it's so claustrophobic...likes things suddenly hits you from nowhere...and you start crying .....why the fuck I'm crying over a soft doll...idk.. it's overwhelming 

Conflict

what to feel? 

YOLO

Broken

So i am confused....my boyfriend and i are from different caste, nd i know he will try to make his parents agree for marriage when right time comes but still i doubt what if his parents don't agree wht he will do, isn't it too risky to wait for someone this way , i can better marry someone my parents will select everyone will be happy but what if i don't ever love that other person as much as i love my boyfriend, it will be wrong to the other person , and currently I don't even know how to breakup and should I breakup or take the risk and wait what life holds for us in future, what would u do if u were in my situation.

Feeling crazy…no one on my side…am I really such a bad person to have to be treated as if my feelings are not valid? God I need to leave this house…my mental health is slowly deteriorating, and not even my closest person can save me now. Feeling lost and not appreciated. I never felt like this way before. I feel too much, and that’s another problem. I’m alone with my own thoughts, and that’s why I can’t seem to stop these negative thoughts. It is also my low self esteem. God I can’t seem to get rid of that. It’s his family against me. I will never win. Always going to be the villain. The outside. The wife of their brother. The outcast. Maybe if I occupied myself with things, maybe I won’t feel so bad. Even my own husband doesn’t understand why I feel sad and frustrated. They didn’t do anything directly to me, but you can sense the disdain they have for me. That’s what he doesn’t understand. They don’t have to do anything, they just show it in their body language. Their actions. Little things. Like not inviting me anywhere. Blocking me off social media. Not telling me where they are going. Staying quiet when I walk the room. Indirect comments that clearly are meant for me. These stupid things.  

I don’t know how to communicate how I feel to my husband, because its his family, and I can’t do anything unless I want to start a big fight. Last time I talked to him, he told me what is wrong with me and why am I contradicting myself when I talk. Because I want to completely cut them off, but I also don’t want to have any drama, and I don’t want him to lose his family over me. I want to leave cordially, but I also want nothing to do with them. But then I’ll feel even more lonely than before. UGH I don’t know. Maybe I am just crazy.
My dad was right. This was bound to happen one day. I don’t even want to call my dad because he’ll see right through me. 

Family

What is the non clingy, non crazy way of asking "u mad at me, u didn't like my story like you usually do?" 

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