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Personal Growth

As an adult, we should be capable of socializing  with people very easily but here I'm,  I cant even look into my cousins eyes and have a conversation. I feel so awkward and strange. I feel like after lockdown my confidence has gone down. It's become very difficult for me to interact with people but I'm good at talking to people whom I will never meet again or a down to earth and polite person. Do I need help or will it get better on it's own. I do try my best talking but I cant.

Anxiety

Any useful tips for me to be productive for a long time?

3am Thoughts

How do I get over somebody? I try so hard yet I go to bed with them on my mind, and my first thought in the morning is always them. 

Crush

I wear a bracelet cause I love to.
But even that irritates me when it gets stuck on my forearm and I couldn't slide it back down to my wrist.

This is not about a bracelet :)

Getting sensitive makes life hard.

Exhausted

So, the thing is my father is a narssistic human and has not pity or understanding or even a least bit of kindness to his children nor to his wife. He has never been affectionate and supportive towards us. Worst is that he humiliates and openly insults us and shoves it down our throat that we aren't deserving of anything good. Uses vulgar and demeaning language. It's all upsetting and I have been dealing and putting up with him for as long as I can remember. It's been months I haven't spoken to him properly nor have made any eye contact despite living under one roof which makes it all the more stressful to put up with him as he always finds ways to indirectly taunt me. Even though his kids have grown up and are of age wherein we know the difference between good and bad; he still hasn't gotten past his rude, dark and mentally disruptive behavior. 
Also just so you know... He's not a drunkard. So he's concious with his actions. And also he's a mama's boy and his mother is known to be wicked. Ever since the marriage my mother and her mother in law haven't been on good terms and instead of knowing the sickening acts of his mother he deliberately forces us all to be good to her when all she ever did was spread poison in our minds so we go against our mother and put her on top. I don't know when this will end.
Even my siblings are getting drastically affected with it and we can't even do anything about it. We've literally been on a mental and emotional trauma all our lives. According to him, he's always right and we're always wrong or too small to understand. He treats us like we're nobody and our existence doesn't matter. Day and night he verbally abuses us. The only peaceful time we have is when he leaves for work. He doesn't even take genuine interest in our lives. Till today I never heard sweet and affectionate words from his mouth for his wife. I mean literally, forget about us. When he can't respect his own wife, we can't even imagine he'll be any different to us being his children.
I'm stressed and have no direction in my life as it is and just the fact that he's there, makes me soo irritated. I even had to end things with my boyfriend because I don't want to have a partner practicing even 2% of his traits. But no worries, as I'm in a good place now and feel lot lighter. 

Harassment

As unfortunate as it is, I've come back to this place. Things are starting to get worse. But hey! I'm impressed by the changes made in here! It's so much better than before. Though the first layout and version will always have a special place in my appreciation list. How are you guys?

Mental Health

I have never been freinds with a guy... 
Is it because they find me ugly or coz I m dusky (I think I am pretty though😛).. Is friendship also based on appearance... Btw i've never interacted with boys in any stage of my life.. In school I was very focused and mostly happy being alone an introvert as they say..  Even now I prefer it that way but I m curious if I am that unworthy to not have  a single friend... It kind of makes me think iam less attractive... I want a male perspective on this... Can anyone help? 

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