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Personal Growth

I can manage to distract myself from overthinking or emotionally disturbed in the day time but when it's about night, I totally loose my sleep. No matter how much I distract myself I can never get out of these dreamy yet bothering nights. 

Overthinking

I let myself be vulnerable and I got used. I was separating from my ex of 18.5 years when a guy from middle school instant messaged me on Facebook. He was very persistent and sweet. He said all things I wanted to hear from my ex. He then moved back to his hometown which is where I live only to find out he is broke and just needed someplace to go. I paid for everything while on dates. Tried to help him with attire for when we go out. I just wouldn't live with him bc I wanted to be engaged first. He grew more and more angry because of this. He started putting me down and degrading me. He started to stand me up and not call as much. Tonight was the last draw. I have deleted my Facebook account and I know he doesn't know my number by heart. If he truly has a broken phone like his excuse was for not calling, I shall not ever hear from him again. I just feel so very stupid.

Relationships

Now I know no one in the world is crazy. They make you into a crazy person little by little,if you don't fit society standards 🍁

Affirmations

You all know right it could be a guy whom you thinking to be a girl , internet is full of free images to use as pfp :⁠-⁠)

3am Thoughts

stop shaming girls for wanting s*x 

Hey strangers!!👋how are you hope you guys are good.and guess what???    we already crossed half an year too easily isn't it??😭💀  Pata he nhi chala ki how tf ? Haha this shows we are soo much into a matrix that we unable to come out of it ..and that's how our destruction starts..sad thing but true and the second thing is I appreciate everyone for doing a great job and still holding responsibilities on your shoulders you know what?? You doing so well ❤️‍🩹Just don't give up 

Let's talk about our previous year now just examine how your habits your way of working way of living changed from your previous year ..till now and I guess it's one of the traumatic year for us right?? As well as the best too coz it's you who played a lead role in your lives.you learnt a lot you failed you fall down and you've realized what is actually permanent and what actually is a passing cloud., but the real is you actually learnt how to survive alone and how to tackle no matter even if no body is aside of you ✨🍁

Some people be like eww / duh she's so much of attitude 
Ohh look she's too rude 

But none will say There is a reason behind why a person like this.no one will actually get your pain what you went through what you actually going through.no one saw your scars no one seen your tears but everybody will point out Our mistakes.you vibe with your friends and make them laugh from the Core of the heart but at the end of the day you end by crying on the pillow at the night 3.am . without getting noticed hugging your pillow imagining your loved one this is the most beautiful and painful moment at the same time.you enjoying their memories in your head like how you use to be.but now they aren't with you anymore.💔you are trying to not to remember but at the same time you decided you will not approach anyone anymore.heart forgiving your mistakes but Brain isn't .

Yes it's true ego kills beautiful bonds forever but wait! What if is comes to self respect we know we actually don't go for ego when everything is going well .your self is important at first then rest of the things 

Life is all about running and filled with obstacles if we wanna to the next phase we have to cross the present at first just like a game.when we don't give up on an after all game then how we leave our life.correct? Nee challenges are waiting for  you go ahead..such situations will come that you won't expect. My self esteem boosted up by my previous experiences some shattered me but ended in a good way and that's how I became stronger we must thankful to god that he made us to learn and give potential to break the toxicity from us❤️‍🩹..

Okay. Honestly as we are living the same the over and over again I'm toooo bored. I feel like I'm Kai from The Vampire Diaries that has been stuck in a prison world. Damn I hate being cooped up at my house doing nothing. Like I've done cooking, painting, exploring my house, cleaning my storeroom, reading books and now I don't have anything to do. God! I hate lockdown. 

YOLO

Lowest I’ve ever felt kinda just need someone to talk to 

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