Even if you're someone who's looking for someone here as partner, don't try not worth it. 

3am Thoughts

Anyone writing a novel or short stories or anything creative (fiction) , I need help cause I feel stuck and all the motivation sucked out of me 

Productivity

I feel exhausted and tired, genuinely empty. I feel like no one actually cares about me and that I am sometimes invisible to people. I hide my feelings well but its nice to be checked up on sometimes and that doesn't seem to happen. I feel anxious and just drained alot if the time. everything is catching up to me and I haven't cried in a while and I really need a good cry or it'll all bottle up into more and not be good. anyways how's everyone else's day going ?

Mental Health

So I came across a social media account of a guy I knew during my school days... And looking at his recent feeds and way of posting which doesn't match anywhere near the guy I remembered him as, really reminded me of this another guy I was previously in a relationship with because of the resemblance of the nature of posts. I couldn't believe I was with someone like him, and the sheer disbelief made me interested or curious to go through the chats we used to have in whatsApp once ago. And mannn.... It made me cringe so hard 🥲🥲.... To think I'm that same girl. 

Har baar mujhko zakhm-e-judayi na diya kar,
Tu agar mera nhi to mujhko dikhai na diya kar..

Have you ever had this  evil feeling of not being happy when you're ex moves on finally from you , whom you rejected and you were actually very toxic to them .

Slowly closing this chapter of my life. One inch at a time. Our future, hopes, promises. Gone. Closed. Forgotten. But I can't forget yet. So I'll hang on a little longer. Even though you are never going to come back. 

Breakup

22 March, 2024
That person is gone, my muse, my inspiration for my art. As you're gone, my emotions are gone. My pain must have been a burden to you. 

23 March, 2024
When I opened my eyes this morning, something punched my chest. It happened and it was real. I sobbed so loud hoping I was still in my dream but the wet tears pulled me back to reality. My emptiness has spread more as someone I care is gone. 
“Please don't look for him. He won't be back and you know it. You will always be alone again.
Did anyone stay with you? It's all your fault. I was halting you from finding someone yet you fell deeper and got destroyed. It's no one's fault but u.” whispering to myself, I consoled my own demise.

24 March, 2024
He is gone but the world is still going on. Time is still not stopping. How do I get back on track again? This summer is too long.
Every second is like hell. How do I teach myself to walk again. Was I that weak all along?


I am feeling lonely. The only thing that made sense in my life was my marriage. It's now messed up. I don't have anything to live for. I don't have children, no house or car, or anything exciting. What makes the mattes worst is that I don't have anyone to share my pain with....😭😭

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