even after a year of my relationship my gf still misses her ex and cries for him. What should i do ? 

Usko, uske Ex ke pass chorr ke aaja bhai.

You’re just waiting to get hurt and possibly waste years of your life. Get out of this relationship 

I am feeling so blank today...I feel alone I wish I had someone in my life..with whom I can share everything..

Anxiety

What is more important 

Life

I Have so many hobbies, but idk i am not able to do anything ahead in them
Like
I love painting and sketching and journaling and calligraphy i.e art  and i am good at it
Singing is my passion..singing calms my mind
Writing and reading books is my fav time pass( one of my books have crossed 3M+ views/reads on a books app )..and i have alost 100+ books in my book shelf bought in last 3 years
I like coding and i have done 4 years of coding
I Am good at photography too, and i have sold my pics at a good price in the past
i love love love doing makeup and i experiment a lot
i love the whole idea of vlogging and all and i wish to open a youtube channel
But still i am doing what my parents want..medical(tbh i am not much interested)..idk why..cuz maybe i am helpless..as i was a scholar throughout my school life they just forced me into medical..they just made my mind think that this is only my way of future..but now i realize i never liked it
I just dunno what to do
it's just random 11Am thinking maybe
Maybe i am overthinking 
Idk
Just blank and clueless


3am Thoughts

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Happy

My father who had heart attack 5 months ago,  tested covid positive cos they visited stupid relatives. When I yelled abt it, both my father and mother bashed me up very badly. I'm very angry and anxious but I can't voice out myself cos nobody in my house including my sister thinks that I should shout which I agree, but keeping quiet also doesn't help. They in fact said no to testing before a couple weeks ago when my dad has symptoms and we had a fight and they didn't get tested.

I feel like I'm totally unwanted in this house. I should start working on moving on in life. I want to cry but im not able to cry. I don't know what to do.

Mmm hey...I don't know honestly what to say. I am at a gathering rn with one my cousins. And he is like my favv cousin, kinda same age just 2 years older than me and it's like our bond is pretty nice. But idk today I felt distant. And at this point of time honestly I am in the headspace where for me it's either you want to be in my life - stay if you don't - leave. 

I don't know maybe I am mixing things idk. Kinda don't feel that good. Not looking for a reply or something becuz I don't think there is anything to reply to this just wanted to get it out of my head.

Confusion

It's like I don't care anymore but I do
It's like I don't feel anything but I do
It's like the world is ending but it isn't 
It's like I want to try but I can't 
It's like I am never enough but maybe I am
It's a never ending cycle and I am no more strong

Well! Yeah...

I want to talk to someone...

Someone who knows me that well that can fill the gaps in between my sentences. 

Someone who listen my unheard voices...

Penning down the thoughts all I can do right now.

Swipe right,left, up and down was doing all day along on my phone. Spending day with your phone is sucks. Watching reels, reading thoughts, taking pictures (with filters) , and wondering why I just don't try the same. Watching Netflix is also not a best thing to do. You'll come to a point where that will look to you boring too, when a series comes to its end or when the content is not actually that good.

So just moving your body on a song I.e. dancing is my favourite passtime or calming your mind by just listening it was the second best option I choose. Okay done with that stuff too. Now what?

Let's get back to Netflix and start with a new series but hello! I'm already bored with that thing. So skipping that idea. Talking to a friend is also one of the best thing one can choose to cheer you up but you know what sometimes, everyone is stuck some where and might be not available at the very right time for you. So disturbing them everytime you need was outdated now. And tadaaaaa Here you're thinking and trying to focus on what's actually going on and what's gonna next in your life, where you're are heading and where will you reach? And What time it will take! How long ?

At the end of the day, summing up the whole tini tiny problem that you had right now, and the way you messing up with your head, feeling frustrated, annoyed, complaining, confused and numb too. 

It just, hold on! I know how you feel! This too shall pass. I'm with you, holding you tight until all gets right. Just taking the things slow and fine. You're Amazing and mine. Everything will be okay soon.

I love you ❤️

Okay?

Your Loving and Living Soul 💫


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