Ek ladki hai...College ke pehle din hi jab voh aai mere saamne matlab mene sirf yeh notice kiya ki ek ladki mere baaju me bethi hai aur naa mene uska chehra dekha naa mujhe uska naam pata tha, lekin jab voh mere baaju me bethi thi tab mujhe andar se ghabrahat, darr feel hua jaise Lisa (evil spirit) in 1920 Hindi movie got afraid of Hanuman Chalisa, vaise hi mujhe afraid feel hua jab voh mere saamne aai.
So is it love or something else? Verify your answer? If yes, then why yes and if no, then why no?

Love

**Note to self**

Today I take charge of my happiness. I decide that it no longer depends on others. It is not effected by acts of those who do not matter and I shall take back all the attention I have given to wrong people.
*Each day is a new exam, and I decide not to ruin my next because I did not do well in d previous*

Motivation

I want to die 😭😭😭😭 i lost everything 

Depression

I think my brain just loves men with huge ass red flags 

3am Thoughts

Kabhi toh tum bhi phele message kardiya karo, har baar mei hi kyu karu? 😩

Exhausted

Looking forward to meeting someone or maybe chatting online. Working night shifts and college I got me alienated. 

#7...........I thought to myself that defence personnels aren't supposed to have social media accounts because of safety concerns and even if they do, they have to comply with certain rules and regulations. Mr. A is a defence personnel for real and it would be dangerous and he'll get in trouble if someone else is using his pictures in their account to talk to people. Yeaahhh!!!! Seems like a good reason to approach him and start a conversation. I took one of his picture which I had with myself in which he is wearing uniform and constructed a message - "Is this your Pic ??? I just wanna confirm. As someone has been using these pictures and talking to me. I guess all of this is happening without your knowledge so I thought of letting you know about this."....This is the exact message I sent him over instagram and also told myself that I'll not make any more attempts to talk to him again if this fails. That night I didn't hope for anything and almost thought that this too won't work out. Next morning I woke up and carried my work as usual and didn't even bother to check my Instagram. It was in the evening when I noticed that he saw my message and replied to me. I was happy but more than being happy I was nervous. I didn't know what to do next. Mr. A was really enquiring me about everything - Who sent me his pictures ? What's the guy's name ? Who are you ? Etc etc. I had a bunch of questions to answer. I didn't reply to him that day and decided to sit and think of how to carry the conversation forward so that things go smooth. But at the end of the day I was happy that I got an opportunity and was determined to not mess up this opportunity with him, but little did I know another problem was waiting for me...........(to be continued)  

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