Edit: I think I’m getting attracted towards X again…
I met someone online, really liked his company. After 2 months of constant talking, he just stopped talking to me. Let’s call him X.
I felt very lost and hopeless for 2-3 months after that. Then he calls me & wants to become friends again. Meanwhile, I became really close to someone else who filled in the gap. Let’s call him Y.
And I met Y first and we became really close. In fact, we’re very comfortable around each other. He helped me get through some of the toughest moments of my life including borderline depression. Recently, he confessed to me & I like him a little too. v platonic again.
Soon after, X was in town & we met too. Totally platonic excepting holding hands (although he said he wanted something more). But I was so angry at him because he’d ghosted me & he gave me an explanation after 8 months. I wanted to meet him to tell him that I don’t want to engage in his company. Instead, he said he likes me & wants to take this ahead. Of course, all my feelings came back and I couldn’t hold back. I feel like I want to forgive him but his mood swings are erratic. I have 10 days left in the city & I don’t know who to choose & how to get over X.
I told X that it’s too late now & I’ve met someone else. but the ‘if’ always remains. What if he hadnt left.
I know I’ll regret being with him but he stood me up. And it’s been a bad phase. And I cant think of anything else but how to get over it. And Y has been such a good friend. Although I dont feel so strongly for him but I do love his company.
Am I cheating on any of them???
Umm you gotta do what your heart says.
