dosto apni pareshani baato ek sentence m
mine - ( i can't control my thoughts) and i suffer

I am a object emotionally used by everyone 

3am Thoughts

'Relax yr'
'thoda life ko easy liya kar'
'get out of your comfort zone'
' me to kheta hu khush rha karo'
'koi stress h hi nai, kyu lete ho'
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All these statements do not help people suffering from mental health problems.
Be aware... Be more compassionate.
#talktosolve.
#psychiatristinsight

Affirmations

Just writing my feelings

Life aise kyu hai yrr.... Logo ko virasat mai khandan se property ya paise milte hai but muje... anxiety stress gareebe mili hai...Mtlb saalo pehle humre dada pardada apna gaav chod ke yaha aaye kamane ke liye na par sala duniya daari mai he sab gava diya... Na gaav mai kuch rakha na he yaha city mai apna kuch kar paye... Dad ke pass jab achi kamane ki job thi tab unhone bhi Aisa nhi socha ki apne baccho ke liye kuch save Karu... No I am like agar muje apna education bhi complete karna hai toh khud ke paiso pe... Yahi nahi upar se Ghar pe bhi do... Kisi bhi point pe mom dad ko aise nhi laga ki kal ko betiyon ki shaadi ke liye kuch save Karu... Loan le leke di ki shaadi karai... Ab uske Emi's mere ser pe... With minimum education and Little to no experience they expect me to earn 20k or 25k I mean wtf... Kya mere dreams nhi hai meri wishes nhi hai... Muje bhi apni studies karni hai yrr... I don't know kab kaha kya galat hua par uske baad sab sala galat he ho raha hai 😭😢😢

Exhausted

Mai aajkal bohot religiously motivated hu mostly i am following Shree Krishna ji For developing my self my character my way of living, jisme se ek chiz mujhe bohot sahi lagti hai ke hame har kisi se acche se behave karna chahiye no matter wo aapke sath kaisa hai lekin most of the time ye chiz mujhe hurt krdeti hai log kaafi matlabi hai, apni zarurat ke mutabik baat karege hasege khelege sath rahege fir importance nahi dege, i am a kind of person who wanna be there for every person, who want help who want a frd to talk to, who want someone to just be there with them, or jab mujhe hi kisi ki zarurat padti hai tab koi nahi rehta hai, it hurts yaar, jab aap sabka khayal rakh rahe ho selflessly or aapka time aane pr koi nahi sath de toh, 

dopher ko soo liya th to ab overthinking aa rhi h. 
anyone up for convo smalltalk although I suck at smalltalk😷

I have a question. Ladkiyan agar working na bhi ho to chalega. Usko achaa working ladka mil jaata hai. Par agar ladka ,ladki se thoda kam bhi earn karta ho to usko ladki ke ghar waale kabhi accept nahi karte. Hum ladko ke saath aisa kyun hota hai 😑 Ladko ki value paiso se kyun dekhi jaati hai ?? 
 Need some perspective on this. I like a girl but her parents rejected me due to this. They are like my daughter earns better than you. We will look for someone who will match her level.

There was a lizard in my room. I tried to drive her away but she ran behind my wardrobe 🥲 abb mai kya karu?

Confusion

This morning I was feeling happy just a beautiful day so
And I was wearing black so I was feeling confident too...
So I clicked some pictures and and set it as my Profile pic
In the afternoon This person from my work mocked...
" Tu baal khule mat rakh chudail lagti hai " and laughed loudly... Maine bhi majak samj ke ignore Kiya....
In the evening he said the same again...
I was like kya problem hai iska Bhai... My hair my wish I'll tie it or I'll keep it the way I want... Mere hair se bhi problem hai batao ab
Felt a little bit bad...
People can be rude 😔

Frustration

Janti Ho bahut pyar karte the Tumse 
Ijjat ka v kha khyal rakhe Ham
But bejjat karne me v kaha koi kasar chodi tum
Shyad kami mujhme  hai na...
Khud se Jyada Dusro ki Emotions ko value dena 
Kya kare ham Bolo aaise hi hai hum
Thode pagal se nakare se hai na hum ...
Kami Tumhari Aaj v hai but maa kasam teri sympathy ki koi Darkar nahi hai...
Emapthy hota toh soch v lete 
Thoda khud ko jane se Rok v lete 
But ek wada hai ... Tum pachtaogi
Ek din Tum v har jaogi 
Dekhna Yad aye rone me mat lagna 
Thoda khud ke shmabal kar chalte rehna
Tere jaise nahi hai hum 
Bus thoda duniya se piche reh gaye ham
taqlif Aaj v hai but ab pyar ki koi khumari nahi hai...
Janti ho sab badal raha hai 
Aaj khus hai hum and dhere dhere Sara himmat laut raha hai...
Chalo jate hai ab na ayenge aur na tere bare me sochenge 
Bus thoda tere khus rehne ki bus prathna kar lenge ... 
Aaaj accha feel horaha
Mera dil v heal horaha 
Phir se banjar zindagi shabhal rahi 
Zindagi ek naye duar me laut rahi
7 saal kaha Kam hota hai 
Bina gunah ke jail kon sehta hai...
Mai hi pagal tha sach batata hu
Tu dekhna ab zindagi ko kaise sabarta hu
Gussa hai bahut andar me but ab ye bekar nahi jayega rone me ... 
Shayd ye mera akhri Khat ho
Kyuki time nahi barbad karne ko
Chal Futt yaha se ye bolu but gali kyu du maa ke diye sanskar ko 
Jo so hua hua bus ek line bolna Bhul gya 
Tata bye bye se pehle kuch chut gya 
Chalo ab jate hai 
Sab khatam kar dete hai
_self

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