dosto apni pareshani baato ek sentence m
mine - ( i can't control my thoughts) and i suffer

I am a object emotionally used by everyone 

3am Thoughts

Girls just get a guy frnd, boyfriend toh use zamana bna hi dega.....

Mene kuch anjane me bahut badi galtiyaan kar di. Jo morally sahi nahi thi. Uske liye mene apne dearone se kai bar mafi mangi unhone ek bar me maad bhi kar diya. But me jitni baar bhi mafi mangti kuch na kuch thoughts man me aane lagte jese ye colour dekh liya , ya desires aate h jabke agar ap mafi mang rahe ho to ap dil se mange us waqt dimag me kuch nahi ana chaiye. Mene fir finally jis din mafi mangi uske baad hota h na ke badi galtiyaan ki h to ab ekdam se normal baat mat karna chup raho. Me normal ho gae mene dearones se bola chalo gate ke bahar night walk pe chalte h unhone kaha nahi abhi nahi mene ek do bola esa fir mene us chiz ki bhi mafi mangi ke mene normal behave kyu kiya. Fir me irritate ho gaye wo sun nahe rahe the kyunki koi bhi apki apology baar baar sun ke bore ho jaega. To mene irritate hoke bola 'suno na' uski bhi mafi mangi , aur me mobile dekhne lag gaye. Mene mafi mangne se pehle khud se ye promise kiya tha ke mujhe kisi non-edible chiz ka addiction tha wo ab me nhi khaunge na dekhna na touch. But uska daily life me use h me ignore nahi kr skti ye bhi man me chalta h mere.  Mene last bar mafi mangne se pehle mobile bhi nahi chalaya jo aj ki date me kitna important h , tv nahi dekha , gane nahi sune , kisi dost se bt nahi ki meri kya halat ho gai hogi socho fir mene mafi mangi 'suno na' irritate hoke bol gai mafi bhi mangi or mobile dekhne lage. But meri halat bahut kharab h. me mafi bhi ni mang skti abhi kyunki agar me mafi mangungi to mujhe bahut time ho jaega. Meri body thak jaegi. Meri health bhi gir gai h. Me weak ho gai hu khana ache se nahi khati. Mujhe dr psychologist , meditation ki salah abhi mat dena me dr. Ko dikha diya psychologist se bhi session liye but har baar ek hi baat uske fee pay karni padti h. me kya karu ap meri jagah hote to kya karte mujhe bataiye i really need help. Me bahut jyada pareshan hu. Me kuch kam bhi nahi kar pate ache se.

An advice for simps to not be simps (from a former simp)
Bhai , wo nahi degi. Stop simping . This low self esteem attitude jo hai tumhara , work on it . I'm genuinely telling you this. Stop being nice to girls all the time and focus on being more kind to yourself . Tumhara depression ke jo reasons hai , one of the main reason is lack of reciprocal attention from the opposite gender. Tum simping karoge to wo nahi jayega ulta aur badhta hai. 6 mahine and 10000 ki goliya khaai tab dimaag jaake thikaane pe aaya hai ki simping nahi karna and self respect nahi dena kisi ko. Yaha pe kitne log serious problem leke aate hai, unko becharo ko koi response nahi tunhare pass, ek ladki sirf bored likh de to tum tut padte ho . Stop giving random people itna bhaav and help those who are in genuine need of it . 

Relationships

Why the f here all talk about there crushes and their love 
We all singles feel jealous yrr aisa thodi hota h 😂😂😂

Does anyone have the weird thing ki jo unkai dil ya dimag mai ho wo unkai face par saaf nazr ajata hai. Among the lots of things i hate abt myself... this is the one thing i cannot hide🙄

Other

Mai peechle 3 saal se ruk sa gaya hu kahi... Gota yu hai 2017 mai aur mera friend office open karte hai waha ek ladki aati h usse mujhe aur mere friend ko attraction ho jata hai .. Ab hum decide karte hai dono try karte jisko woh choose kaare woh uski marzi ... Ab mai phele karta hu aur woh mere sath  relationship mai aa jati hai ... Mera dost ko jealous feel hota hai woh meri ko approach karta hai aur unke beech kiss ho jati hai usko lekar mere dost aur mera jagda hota hai mere saaare dost uska sath dete hai mai sabse alag ho jata hu ladki ke sath rehta hu us time but mai andar se tuta tha toh alcoholic chain smoking  literally esa tha ki ek din mai 2-3bottle whisky and 20 packet cigarette...phir khud ko sambhala nayi shuruwat ki.. Ab 2018 mai career personal life short ho rahi thi phir mere office mai mera cousin ata h woh bhi attract ho jata h meri GF se ab mai kaam mai bahut busy rehne laga tha toh tume issue the GF ke sath ... Then ek baar woh pregnant ho gayi maine usko abort karne ke liye kaha kyuki hum dono bus 23 ke they isliye usko baby karna tha .. Then usne mere cousin ke sath physical relation bana liye phir mai bilkul tut gaya ek dum .. 2019 end tak aate aate ye sab pata chala.. Ab us time mai financial,emotional,personal,professional har tarah se struggle kar raha tha ...bahut bura laga jis ladki ke liye sabko chodaaa tha woh phir dhoka deti hai jis cousin ko apne barabar rakha bhai se badkar mana usne dhoka diya dost ne tih diya hi tha....kher ab phir depression aya tohda alcoholic phir hua but phir shambhala 2020 feb tak.. Lekin feb 2020 delhi riots mai restaurant mai aaag laagi coaching centre mai tod phod hui ... Phir 2020 mar lockdown ..... Ab lockdown ke baad khud ko dubara chance diya ...sab thik bhulne laga dheere dheere lekin 2020 end mai mera friend jisne mujhe dhoka diya tha tab usse patch up hua ...sab normal hone laga dheere dheere ab us dost ke sath online rummy gambling ki aadat lag gayi usko maine financial aur emotional support bhi kara .. Mai lagbhag phir barbaad hua... 2022 mid tak isme laga raha jab tak sab kuch kho nahi diya.. Ab mai uske sath kum milne laga gambling chodd di ..  Phir kaam mai laga ab maine ek  start up kiya aur woh acha kar raha tha.. Woh mere dost mujhe milta hai haal kehta hai bada business men ho gya and maine ab uuske sath connection khatam kar diye .... Ab mai emotional itna tut sa chuka hu ki kya batau.. Mera woh cousin mere samne hi rehta hai. . mera dost roj mere samne se nikalta hai meri ex lagbhag dikh hi jaati hai month mai ek baar... Sab samne rehte hai mai chah kar nahi bhool pata inn sab baato ko ... Ab ye baat kisi ko share nh kar pata khabi bilkul akela mehsus hota lagta hai mai hi kyu har baar itna sab hone ke baad bhi mai try karna chahta hu lekin nahi ho pa raha man karta hai kahi chala jau sab chooddd kar ke yaha khamosh kar lu khud ko... Ab bus ab nh ho pa raha khud par kaabu..feeling alone ek dum alone

Depression

Wada naa sahi toh yeh faisla kar do
Meri bann jao ya mujhe barbaad kar do

I feel so alone , everything hurts kuch sahi nhi chalra yaar

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