Don't know why I m too much serious today .
Mtlb itna funny nd crazy sa ladka aaj itna kse BDL gya nd woh bhi itna serious .
Seriously kch ni smjh aa rha 
Bs ek love or romantic si web series dekhi nd uske baad overthinking on high .
Kisi k baare mai soach rha bt ye ni pta kiske baare mai 
Ohfffoo ye kya ho rha yrr mujhe ye acha bhi lg rha nd ajeeb bhi pata ni kya hai ye. 

Tony Stark

Not exactly but yeah nature of that charector nd my imagination wali girl are quite same may be is it possible ?

Yes you will be fine , just a stupid face going on .. take a chill pill 💊 

3am Thoughts

Anxiety hori h guys bhot bayankaar raat ko Kasai sooun koi idea is se deal krney k 

Kitna mushkil hota hai na shadi jse bandhan mai bandhna ke liye sabko raazi Krna 
Jb 2 rooh mil chuki ho just ek samaj k liye shadi Krna or dono k ghr wale na mane Krane k liye 
Pr ladka ladki at any cost sath rhna chahe 
Bhagkr shadi Krna bhot aasan hai pr woh dono sbki shmati chate iske liye struggle kr rhe dono khne ko toh pass hai pr puri society alg krne mai tuli hui ho
Bs apna koosoor kya hai ki mohobaat ki or isme humari dono ki kya glti agr caste alg nikl aayi toh just don't know aage kya Krna chahiye 

Is mod pe aa chuki hai zindagi ke 
Ab sukoon ki chaha nhi 
Ab kisi ki dekhte Raha nhi 
Or Kari thi mohabbat behisab usse
Woh chord gayi yeh keh kar mujhe 
Ke hum bewafa kisi or se dil laga baithe
Usse kon bataye hum apni nind uske khatir gawah baithe 
Apni zindagi jala baithe 
Apna khoon baha baithe 
Or uske jaane ke baad bas in shayrio se dil laga baithe 
Uske ek tasveer apni manzil bana baithe
Or kami thi usme yeh baat kehte the yaar mere
Kami thi usme yeh baat kehte the yaar mere
Hum hare baar uss baat bas jhuth Maan baithe....

Poetry

I had crush on cousin brother 2_3yrs back 
He cane to my place we had a moment ( i dont know why i did he slept on my lappy and rubbing  my finger on his hair) my mom saw me and telling me not to do it again.
he had no feelings for me at all. .we just flirt talk or msg with each other for fun.thats it  in college days ..so i used to stalk him.  But i did it mistake i stalk his college frnds added them in fake id to check his frnds circle . My mom went to his place so he just asked for phone (i logged out id)  but when mom told about it to me .i checked phone & it was logged in it was opened  i dont know whether he had seen i d or not but from that day we never talk to each other..on phone nor we texted each other..
 I dont have feeling for him now .

i thinking what reason will i give  him if he asked me about it ..


Plz suggest me any lie.. 

One Sided Love

An stressful situations me insaan mental health pe dhyaan de ya physical?
Whenever there is an emotional burnout, i tend to eat ALOT of junk. Otherwise, in normal situations i am always health conscious about how i eat and what I do to workout.
But, jab se ghar pe aayi hu, periodically har 2 weeks me ek total emotional and mental failure hota hi hai. Use kaise deal karna hai ye to abhi seekh rahi hu, par meanwhile, jab bhi itna junk khati hu...joki us time boht zaruri lagta hai, par baad me guilty feel hota hai kyuki sari mehnat 3-4 din me barbad.
Guilty feel hota hai ki kitni irresponsible hu apni hi body ki taraf.
Aur mental health ka to rehne hi do, kabhi aur bataungi, boht time lagega.
But ye physical health vs mental health in times of utter emotional lows ki dilemma me please koi help karo, please :/

Mental Health

I want to disclose something very bad to me and my family.
12 saal pehle mere bhai ne bhaga kar shaadi ki. Jisse shaadi ki wo haryana ki aheer(yadav community) thi.

Mera bhai indian airforce main kaam krta tha abhi Sargent hai. Aur jo ladki bhaagi thi wo kuch nhi krti sirf graduation ki thi.

Uss ladki ne shaadi ke 12 saal tak mere bhai se milne nhi diya kisi ko. Jab mere mummy ICU main pahunchi tab papa ke inform krne pr aaya seedha hospital aur 2 ghante main nikal gya. 
Riste main to wo bhabhi lagti hai lekin bhabhi wale ek bhi character nhi hai. Jab ghr pr ayi thi to mene poocha kaha se ho to lath wali language main boli kya krna hai. Aur jawaab nhi diya. Jab ek din bhateje ke birthday main sabse baat ki aur mujhe chod diya to mene poocha mujhe kyu chek diya to kehti hai tum khud jaano in very rude language.

Ab jab papa retire hue to papa ka paisa aaya. Aur papa ne ek property kareedi. Hum inform krna chahte to wo phone hi nhi utha rhi. Kab mene phone kiya apne phone se recent Sunday yeh soch kr ki bhai se baat hogi. To wo phone utha kr kehti hai ki wo nhi hai. Mujhse kehti hai agar apne bhai se baat krni hai to mujhse 1000 baar request krni hogi. Bahut insult ki hai tumhaare khaandaan ne aur samaaj ne. Kehti hai agar main kharab hoti to case kr deti. Tab mene kaha papa ne to bhai ko bedakhal kr rkha hai aur FIR bhi krwa rkhi hai. To bade dukh main kehti hai haa mujhe pata hai. Kehti hai koi bhai nhi uska aur nhi hai. Tum saare kharaab ho sirf wahi alag hai. Mene jab kaha ki main to sabse chota bhai hun uske balak ke saman hu to kehti hai koi bhai nhi hai. Kehti hai mujhe pr jaan nichawar krta hai. Main agar keh dungi to koi bhai nhi rahega na koj maa baap. Mene kaha yeh to mene pehle hi dekh liya tha. Uske one sided hone pr. Kehti hai koi gate se andar ghus kr dikhana. Ab aakr dikhana airforce quarter main(jaha bhai rehta hai).

Main riste Ur umar main chota hone ki wajah se kuch na bola. Warna bahut kuch aa rha tha uss ke liye.


Mera bas ek hi question hai jo bhaag kr aati hai wo saari yahi hoti hai. Maa baap ka sarkaari kamao ladka khakr unhe hi case main fasane ki dhamki de rhi hai. Jiski mehnat pr uski naukri lago hai usi aadmi ko andar ghuskr dikhane ki dhamki deti hai. 

Agar bhagwaan hora hai aur yeh dekhta hai to main yahi kahunga inn Jaiso ko wahi de jo yeh hume de rhi hai. Taakii iss buri janwar ko pta Lage kese doosro ko takleef di jaati hai. Kaise kisi ki mehnat ka fal (sarkaari naukri wala ladka) khaa jaate hai bina kuch kr hi.

Bhagwan bure se bure din dikhaaye taaki doosro ka dukh samajh aaye jo yeh k**tiya detii hai 

Anxiety

Yeah... priority does change.. vo bhi bahut jayda hi jaldi aajkal.. 

So stop stupid heart jo har baar ye trap mai fas jate ho..

Other

As everything is falling apart, everyday something unusual is happening with me. And I am not surprised at all because this has become so common with me, that I laugh. I laugh because it actually happens. But that's okay. I will become used to of it. I know this is the time to face rejection, I hope I will become used to of it. 
"Mehnat ka fal acha hota hai" aji 1un6 mera 
Today I have an interview and I am not gonna prepare for it at all because ik mehnat ka fal mujhe mil nahi raha hai to bina mehnat krke hi sahi. Mehnat karke ab time pass nahi karna hai.

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