Don't know whats wrong with me .... started hating my family friends even myself , i quit my job ,i don't want anyone around me even i dont want to use social media .
trying hard to do meditation ,be calm but at end i want to end this life . i have no one to share or who understand me but i want to came out from this situation.

thanks , have you ever been in such situation? what should i do 

A lot of times bro but over comed with everything travel urself find the peace in it 

Depression

If you're confused between two partners which one would you go for? One is ur true love who messed up big but is changing and you share a great connection with them and they are head over heels in love with you. 
Second one is a balanced man with great understanding but he loves you but less than the first. Connection is good but not so great. It can develop but that's uncertain. 
Confused as to give the first one a chance or take things ahead with the second one. 
I'm sorry this looks very odd thinking about two men at once. But I am really confused and cannot seem to decide. 

Love

My best friend is upset with me. He and I know each other since 4 years. He's someone I can never imagine to lose. What to do? 

3am Thoughts

So the back story is that the three of us were best friends but one of us shifted schools and after half a year she just seemed as if she didn’t want to keep touch. The two of us tried our best to maintain friendship but it just didn’t feel like that energy was being reciprocated. Also the two of us became super close mean while. Finally we kind of unofficially cut ties with her and it didn’t seem to bother her. Today I texted the third friend out of the blue only to find out she was diagnosed with cancer. She’s told me not to tell my best friend but I mean we three were bffs at one point. I know it’s not my place but I also can’t hide it? I don’t know what to do 

i genuinely wished not to wake up last night 

Want talk some new people 

I feel drained.

I really need to let this out.
My dad always cheated and he abusive towards my mum and I for a while when he was an alcoholic. I had to matured from a young age because I had a little sister and I wanted to protect so she wouldn't have to go through that. I thought my dad would change after drinking but he didn't. He still cheated on my mom, he stopped being abusive for a while but he started again whenever he had an outburst, Those memories still haunt me, I guess it's the only memories of my childhood I remember. My mum couldn't leave because she had no where to go and she wasn't qualified enough to stand on her own. I entered high school my dad ended having a woman  wand this time he didn't leave her when we found out. He kept it going on for 7 years, Those 7 years were so much for me to take in that I just went into a slump. I know it was nothing compared to what my mum went through.
He puts this woman first after everything my mom has done, it feels as if we are the second family. Most of his life, he never worked. My mom did, with whatever small ideas she could make do with, I remember once in grade 6 I sat up late with her just to make loom bans just so we could sell those at school. With that little money she still provided for us, still bought his cigarettes while he sat and did nothing. This woman he has now did some nasty things like black magic for me because she doesn't like me, 2 years ago I use to see a black figure, like a shadow at every corner of my house and I could feel it watching me, I had constant nightmares. Came to grade 12 I fell in love with this boy, we dated for 2 years. He knew everything, like the one person I could actually full trust and be myself. I never had friends growing up. He just went out of control in our second year of dating. I couldn't stand the things he did. Like the way he said it. He use to swear me for evert small thing and hurt because the one person I trusted turned out this way, I guess reality hit him after I distanced myself and asked him to give me time. I still love him, I hope we meet again some day. That woman also interfered in my relationship. That woman has a child( it's not my dads) he does everything for that small child(12) everytime I hear Conan grays some family line. I just break down because my heart is screaming Those words out. I'm turning 21 in a few days and I don't feel anything, Every year I cried on my birthday. Not once did I ever really enjoy it. This thought keeps circling, that I should go the day I came. My death day would be my birthday. I've tried committing suicide 2 tines, I always thought, infact hoped d thingwould turn out better for me but I have nothing going on in my life, I wasted 3 years and lived in a constant day in day out situation. I blame myself.
Inside I'm really tired, the little kid in me only wanted to be happy and everything that made me happy left. I lost interest in the things i use to love. I'm really tired this time and everything is just getting to me.











































































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Coming Out

If you stat around toxic friends slowly you will stop being social person.

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