Dont know what exactly i am feeling 
What to express and how to express just confused wht exactly is going around me 

3am Thoughts

What is the cost of living in uk Birmingham can anyone breakdown for a single student 

Suggest motivational movies which can help me move on from breakup like Rockstar and se dil hai mushkil 

Affirmations

Name one song that may wet your eyes or might have done it in past. 

Mine → when i was your men by Bruno Mars. 

Music

I want to kill myself. 

Depression

I feel like I'm drowning, nothing feels right, I feel unlucky, I'm stressed, lonely and totally messed up.

Insecurity

Would you relieve the moment you had with someone? 
Or you regret doing it at the first place?

Kon h yaha

Addiction

**Introducing myself**
Hi, I'm *Daisy*.  And I'm 16. It's not my real name, but my online alias. Don't worry I'm used to getting called worse. 🙂

So, let me explain why I came to find *this* website.

Lately, I've been struggling. *Struggling*? That seems weird to admit. Anyway, I don't feel comfortable around anyone but my close friends and my boyfriend. I don't like home, I don't like family's houses. I don't like school. Nowhere. 

To most, my life may look great "loving, supportive" parents. Wonderful friends and boyfriend. Well, that sounds dramatic and stupid. But I feel so bad and overwhelmed at home. 

The reason why:
At home, I get hit, punched, kicked, screamed at, sexually harassed and am practically a slave. I get sexually harassed by my Step-Father. Wow, cliche, am I right? He touches my buttocks and breasts. This includes in front of my mother, who doesn't care and supports/encourages it. My brothers have started hitting me as well because they see my Step-Father doing it. So that leads them to believe it's alright. He also hits me and calls me a ~~whore~~, a ~~slut~~ amongst other things. He tugs at my clothes and tries to take them off of me "as a joke". This lets him get away with it. I get screamed at to do all of the cleaning up and to look after my brothers. This may seem like an overdramatisation but it's not. My phone is heavily monitored and I am only allowed it at certain times. If I get a grade lower than a B I get screamed at which wouldn't be that hard if I wasn't in all the smart classes. I'm not allowed to go anywhere but the house apart from school. (Even before Corona). 

My Parentals as I call them. They don't understand my anxiety and depression. They also put me on anti-depressants without me knowing. (They said it would help my anxiety). 

I have been ~~molested~~ many times by different people. Such as family, friends of a friend. My parentals refer to it as "not that bad". 

My boyfriend has helped me through those. He is wonderful. ❤️

I guess I'll end it here so that it isn't too long. I will post more later though.

Thanks for reading, 
Daisy <3

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