Don't know but feeling lonely no one to talk with..............😐😐😐😐😔

Exhausted

How to cheer up quickly 

Depression

I'm feeling alone. I don't know what to do. my mom has always bullied me into hating my body and even forced a diet upon me, and always calls me useless and worthless. she keeps telling me how I am unworthy of love and nobody will look at me with such a body, a couple of days ago I called her out and she said that she pays for my stuff so I'm obliged to obey her. I told her it's her responsibility to look after me until I graduate since I didn't ask to be born. I don't have any friends with whom I can share I don't know what to do now. she is ignoring me now and doesn't even give me food. I have been starving and in pain. 

Mental Health

How’s everyone doing?

3am Thoughts

I used to cry and share problem with my sibling. Thought will stay together with parents and sab khush rahenge. But my sibling left to overseas for studies and job. My sibling knows how I’m always tensed and worry yet he chose this way. He tells me to not be so sensitive and that my problems are tolerable as people have it worse. He is very funny gives good talks but lately I have been feeling that our talks have shortened and now I don’t share any issues with him with fear he will call me weak. Infact I don’t share with anyone as it’s draining. But lately whenever his call comes I don’t feel like talking and pass the call to mummy. Been a month like that. He too doesn’t text me or ask much. Just hi hello types. 

uhm so yeah i just want a place where i could tell my feelings. basically ive been attracted to both boys and girls and im not too comfortable with being called a bisexual, so i sticked with being fluid which i think suits me well cause I'm literally gay like, weeks ago, and now I'm like straight again lol and it's just that idk what to say to my parents who im generally really close with, idk what will they say abt this sexuality of mine, and im scared once they do our relationship will change and they'll see me differently :'> 

Life

Does it even matter if one Person is gone. I feel people are selfish to not let us go. Peace 

Lonely

What causes you still awake?

Diary : 25 nov 2021 00 : 10
- Im grateful for everything , my life is just like a toy yk, people come and play with me for a certain time. After i suck and unused. I just got left, and waitting to be played again. I wonder when they will leave me this time. 

- I trust anyone because i dont care what happens to myself anymore. You want to destroy me ? Go ahead bro but what do you want to destroy? Im already broken. Lmao. 

- if i love someone,. I want he/she to be comfy with me. No matter what, since i just dont want to be alone, i dont want to be not played . Im sick waitting people to play me again.


- Future me here lemme say something i hope you are doing great now cause you once in your live felt something that is hard. People say its a simple thing i also had the same problem. They dont know that we are the different personalities and different character. If i can choose my character i wont waste this good character bro. Ik my own limits and price. 

- i hope you achieve great things. I hope you are still with her. Cause she is the only one who can make me smile while i wasnt. That's it , i hope i survived this live for good :)

P.S. should i just disappear? Me disappearing wont make anyone sad anw and making people relief right hahaha just my opinion

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