Dont give the control of your life,emotion,love and heart to anyone i repeat anyone life me ek chij sikh gaya ki jitna chipkoge log utna dur bhgenge cahe jitna purana relation kyu na ho apki baate tak smne vle ko irritate krne lgegi log aise bdlte hai aur ap apne emotion ka control unko dne ke bd stable hne me bht dard hota h

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yaa bro i you wanna talk bhai toh text krna baat hi kr lenge tu kch suna dna kch mai apna bta dunga

Long Distance Relationship

Thak gya hu bro fake friendship se😁

3am Thoughts

Mai aajkal bohot religiously motivated hu mostly i am following Shree Krishna ji For developing my self my character my way of living, jisme se ek chiz mujhe bohot sahi lagti hai ke hame har kisi se acche se behave karna chahiye no matter wo aapke sath kaisa hai lekin most of the time ye chiz mujhe hurt krdeti hai log kaafi matlabi hai, apni zarurat ke mutabik baat karege hasege khelege sath rahege fir importance nahi dege, i am a kind of person who wanna be there for every person, who want help who want a frd to talk to, who want someone to just be there with them, or jab mujhe hi kisi ki zarurat padti hai tab koi nahi rehta hai, it hurts yaar, jab aap sabka khayal rakh rahe ho selflessly or aapka time aane pr koi nahi sath de toh, 

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Now&Me Feedback

when you're just busy in your day happy enjoying vibing and you just be yourself and then that sudden sadness and past realisation hits you and then saare din ka kabada hojaata hai bane banaye mood ka faaluda din kharab dimag kharab no appetite unproductive 🙂

Samajh ni aarha m kya feel kr rhi hui abhi. Aj ek bhut ajeeb chiz hui m phone band krke sone k lia leti hi thi ki mummy raat me upr aayi dawai khane kuki unke teeth me dikkat ho rhi thi pura muh suj rha tha.. or dawai khate hue unke gale me goli atak gyi.. or vo ajeeb trha se khasne lagi unko saas aana band ho gya or vo chalte hue mere pass ayi awaj dene ka try kr rhi thi pr m unki awaj sun ni pai unhone mere upr pani feka pani mere muh pr gira m achanak daar gyi kya ho gya.. m khadi hui unse pucha kya hua unhone isharo me btaya goli fas gyi.. m turant gilas le kr rasoi ki taraf bhagi pani lene.. pani laa kr diya tb unko saas aaya bhai bhen niche se bhag kr aaye mummy ko pani pene k lia bola or bathaya  thoda pith pr haath mare tb jakr goli gale se nikli. Samajh hi ni aaya ek dm se kya hua vo ajeeb se feeling or daar maan me beth gya.. thodi der baad bhai bhen unko niche le kr gye mere to maano hath per se jaan hi nikal gyi ho. Vo ek paal itna bhari tha ki sari duniya mano ulti ho gyi ho meri. Maan me bs yhi tha agr kuch ho jata ho kya hota. 

Other

It was one of the working days in Diwali in 2019.I entered the office as usual and fell nervous to see all the team mates including the manager wearing eastern outfits.
"Why nobody told me? Even the guy who was absent yesterday came in Eastern attire",I talked to myself.
My mood was off and I was not looking anywhere or at anyone but my laptop.
I heard manager taking my name , "Vinayak" I turned back thinking he wants to talk about some task."Build baad me nikal,pehle idhar help kar",he humilated me for my off mood instead of asking what went wrong and simply asked me to help out in Diwali lighting.

They were taking group photo,one of the team mates asked me to capture the picture I said my hands shiver and my manager cracked the joke "Comedy he" without knowing about my anxiety issue.

The team had planned to go for office outing and fun activity.Those who were not going for outing were supposed to attend office.I decided to attend office due to my anxiety issues.
The evening before going to outing the manager asked "Finally kon kon nahi aa raha he?" and one fellow pointed finger towards me.
"Dharti ka he hi nahi wo,dusre hi planet ka he.Usko chod ke aur kon nahi aa raha he bata.Jo kal office nahi aa raha he usko us din ka code mail karna padega,kaam productive hona chahiye na", the manager again showed his harsh side with sarcasm.

I was (and I am still) among those who take ownership of work,who cares to see what may go wrong in future and make optimisation in code.
If I am (or anyone else for that instance) not interested to participate in things other than work those choices are expected to respected and not humilated.

But wait,he is my manager! Elder than me,much experienced than me and we all Indians are brought up with the culture of not back answering even if elders say whatevar they want.
Morever,he may terminate my employment for his own bad behaviour.

I ended up leaving that job without handover and without notice.I left rest of the team helpless during heated situation of release and hence my manager closed my contract instantly!

It was over! I asked myself,"What was I scared of? Why dint I respond with a NO when he told me to participate in diwali lighting? Why dint I back answer him in front of everyone when he was humilating me in front of everyone?"

Most of managers are rude..agreed...they have their own headweight...agreed..we can not back answer them when this rudeness comes with blend of office task but we should definately confront if it hits on our personal choices.
We may listen to the shouts for mistakes in work but not on choices made for out of office activities.

We all come together to get the projects done.We follow the hierarchy which is fine but if it hits your nerve you should speak out without the need to explain why at first place you made that choice.

Anxiety

Ye jo humlog bolte h na ,isse bt krne se sukoon milta h ,usse bt krne se sukoon milta. Ye sb kch ni h . Jisse wo sb baat, jo or kise se share na kr sko , apne andr lekr pareshan ho rhe ho . Jb wesa kch kisise share krte h na , tv pta chlta h sukoon kya h . 

Or us time jo bharosa hota h na saamne wale person pr , jb aage jaa kr kvi wo us bt ko lekr kch aisa bol de, jo tm kvi soch v ni kr skte the. Uske bd yhi lgta h aisa sukoon kvi chahiye hi nhi life me. Ye nhi h ki us person se hate hoti h , uspr gussa aata h . Pr gussa khud pr aata h , khud se hate hoti h ki jb aaj tk ye bt tmhare andr thi, to ku ise bhr aane dia , 2 min. k sukoon k liye , lifetime ka sukoon kho dia lgta h. 
Ye sb feelings koi words me explain ni kr skta , na koi smjh skta h.

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