Don't fret too much over the closed door that you miss out the open opportunities. The open one's may not be the best but may have beautiful surprises in store. 

Other

I feel really anxious right now, because of my studies... It doesn't feel like I'm able to maintain the pace I need to maintain. Damn, it's tough! 

Anxiety

Its about 1 or 2 week ago my results was bad which gave me a shock I did hardwork for whole month and my friend did exam preparation just in 10 days before exam she got more marks than me and the worst part was my parent judge me they said there is no bright future you don't study 

Education

20s are supposed to be the best years of your life. What am I doing wrong 🥲👀 sick of it already. Having a huge FOMO. A voice inside me is screaming at me telling me something isn't right. This wasn't how it was planned or this sure wasn't on the cards. What did you do? What happened lol🥲

FOMO

Anyone here learned morphlogy... meh have some questions..

College

Slow down
I know you wanna understand
So I'll explain the best I can
What this pain feels like
It's hard
'Cause even as I'm sitting here
I would rather disappear
Than face the world outside
I'm floating in a fallen sky
I'm okay, well, maybe not
(Here it comes again)
So I breathe, am I gonna drown?
You'll be fine, I say it out loud
I should let someone know
Maybe when I'm better
So I breathe, will it ever end?
You'll be fine, I say it again
I should let someone know
That something doesn't feel right
It's like I'm colorblind (Like I'm colorblind)
'Cause everybody's world's in color
Except for mine
It sucks
'Cause everything's in black and white
And I can't say I'm numb inside
'Cause that just sounds so dark
It's hard
'Cause even as we're sitting here
We're fighting off a constant fear
But no one sees that part
It's like I'm floating in a blacked out sky
You think you're okay, then you're not
(Here it comes again)
So I breathe, am I gonna drown?
You'll be fine, I say it out loud
I should let someone know
Maybe when I'm better
So I breathe, will it ever end?
You'll be fine, I say it again
I should let someone know
That something doesn't feel right (Right)
It's like I'm colorblind (Like I'm colorblind)
'Cause everybody's world's in color
Except for mine

 I have everybody mother father sister or friends still I feel alone 
It's like I have don't any 
Why?
I don't know 😔

Missing my ex today out of the blue. Everyone is getting married from my batch. He might be engaged by now. It has been two years since things ended between us and the relationship was toxic. I have been single since then because I was working on my attachment patterns and mental health so I don't end up with someone like him again. Plus I didn't put myself out there in the dating world really. Growing comfortable being on my own. 
But today I'm getting flashbacks of the good and bad times we went through. It's a bittersweet feeling.
I thought of talking about it to a friend but the dude is hated by everyone in my circle because of what happened between us. And people just change the topic and won't let me finish thinking I will be unable to handle these emotions. I just wanted to acknowledge and process this out of my mind. 
I hope our paths never cross Akshay. No hard feelings though. Thank you for the lessons. I owe my growth to your actions. I'm not being sarcastic here. You have inadvertently changed me from within for the better. Thank you very much. :)

Nostalgia

*Bohot waqt baad jo mera naam yaad aya meri mohobbat yaad aayi ya koi kaam yaad aya 😭😭😭😭😭😭* 
~Sarkar Prabhat Ranjan Mishra 

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