Don't fret too much over the closed door that you miss out the open opportunities. The open one's may not be the best but may have beautiful surprises in store. 

Other

Depressed and sad 

Depression

I tested positive today. I was lenient on following the norms. It was my own doing. I did not know expect it will affect me on psychological level. More than worrying about my condition, I’m worried about the people I have come in contact with. If this chain somehow passes down to someone and may God forbid, something bad happens to someone, how will I be able to live with myself? The guilt, the fear, the regret, the embarrassment is killing me. How could I be so stupid? I have been always reckless in my life. And this behaviour now might cause someone their life. I see the disappointment in the eyes of the people who were instructing us to not mix with people. My heart is racing and I cannot sleep.

COVID-19

Janti thi shuru se hi...
Tum mile ho to tumhe khona bhi padega,
Pyaar kiya h to rona bhi padega,
Pr phir bhi...
Phir bhii nhi rok paayi khud ko,
Nhi rok paayi khudko un aakhon m dhalte huye...teri aawaz m khote huye,
Aur na hi rok paayi tujhko mujhse door hote huye.
Rokna to boht chaha...
Pr kis kisko rokti...
Is dil ko jo ab uske liye dhadakne lga tha ya in aakhon ko jo ab sirf uski ek jhalak dekhne ko tarasne lgi thi,
Kis kisko rokti..
Un kaano ko jo sirf use sunna chahte the ya in lavo ko jo sirf usse hi guftagu krna chahte the...
Chlo maan liya..
Maan liya unko rok bhi leti...
To khudko kaise rokti...
Kaise rokti m khudko jb zindagi se jeet kr tum pr haar gyi thi khudko..
Aur har dafa haarne ke baad ab ye haar bhi pyaari lgne lgi thi❤
                                       
                    🍁ARU🍁

3am Thoughts

I have shifted to a new place, trying to study for neet pg 2023. I live with my boyfriend who works 12hrs a day for 6 days a week. And earns good for himself. I have an option to work but I am scared I wont be able to concentrate on studies. Which I am unable to either way. I have rented a pg of my own. But I stay with my boyfriend with 2 other friends of his ( who are my friends as well) in there flat.  I feel I am living off my boyfriends money. Although I do contribute to the household (grocery and other things). But I feel a bit lonely. I know I have my boyfriend. But it gets very difficult sometimes to have no friends of my own. And so much stress leading to unproductivity. I feel I will remain unsuccessful my whole life.

Career

I wish there could be a feature to just show post or status to only friends. 
Like I wanna talk with someone right now, but it would be great if that person is my friend who knows me. So yeah that's a practical example

How to gain lokagyan

Psychology

Feelin heavy but don't know how to let it out how can I make myself feel better . 

Exhausted

feeling lonely without you, you're literally the best person in the world, my whole world, life everything revolves around you and you have the key to my happiness . you are so beautiful and I am so much in love with you, 

my friends tell me that they've never seen me so happy ever, they know that I'm incredibly happy with you and that you're literally the light of my life- I am obsessed with you but all in good ways, like you're the reason i smile everyday i wake up and you're the reason i feel like living and i would really not know life without you because i find myself feeling lonely without you. you make my every struggle better- you're the sun to my sunflower and everything you do makes my heart feel warm.

I love spending time with you but when you're not around, I miss you so much, you're my gf and so cute I AM IN LOVE IN LOVE IN LOVE but i feel lonely without you!!! so please someone also ask her to talk to me and meet me all day everyday- does anyone relate??? do people love as deeply as i do because i feel lonely without you so much and i wish you were here and here with me around giving me hope and sending me love- wish life was as easy as we'd like it to be then i'd feel less lonely without you, you're my hope, love, life and everything i want to be



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