Don't carry your past back shoulder. Carry your future in hands.

Motivation

I get anxious when people get close to me

Misunderstanding

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Supportive

Home after 2 months, Feels good man!

Happy

You can share and vent out your problems as much as you and you must in the beginning but slowly move on and try to find solutions for your problems without getting stuck.....it's very important:)

Become more stronger and learn from your mistakes.

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Affirmations

Its first day of working on myself,woke up at 8 to study after 1 year,yeah 8 am it's late though but taking step by step,trying to heal,made breakfast,took bath nd here my trying to focus,trying to concentrate on myself........wish me luck 

Adulting

so i met this guy at the workplace few weeks back. I kinda had a crush on him and out of the blue he asked me out. We went out got to know each other a bit. It was nice. But then we used to text each other.
He is really busy but still he takes out some time from his work which i appreciate.
His juniors told me that he is a nice guy and is a gentleman which even i felt so.
Yesterday we again hung out. We went on a drive and then to his place. I was quite awkward and he was trying to comfort me. He was being gentle and loving.

He was moving forward but i asked him to stop as i was confused if it’s right or not and wants to take things slow.
He was okay. But deep down i felt if it pissed him off? He didn’t say anything though.
And i’m not that type if girl who just randomly hooks up wt any random person. It takes time to get close to someone before forming a connection. Somewhat like being demisexual.

And the thing was idk what he thinks of he. Am i just a random girl for him? or he actually likes me and take thing forward. It’s really confusing. Idk while spending time with him we both were so silent. I’m an introvert person but he isn’t. Idk why he was silent all the while. He asked me if i reached home or not. But he didn’t texted anything. And nothing today as well. i want it to be something. Because if that’s casual then i might hurt myself by being the only one who’s attached. He once said at the beginning that he could do anything for the girl who he is interested in. He thinks that i might leave the city in next 2-3 months for further studies so maybe…I don’t know…is he doibg it all casual? It has been frustrating to go on with his unsure acts and mix signals. it’s really making me feel heavy. I did have a good time but at the same time i’m not sure if it was right? Like i have been in a relationship before but it turned out to be toxic. I never ever got anyone who cared for me, being gentle with me. I have been treated really bad at childhood. So idk i guess it’s still deep inside me. I see my friends around me having good relationships and having caring boyfriends. Which i never had in all these years. I always ghost people beforehand assuming that they will hurt me. But this time out of my comfort zone, i tried to connect wt him and since someone said he is really a good person, i thought of giving it a chance. i did texted him yesterday but he was out for dinner. Later he texted me that it might take a while and asked me to take good rest and sleep. Idk when i fell asleep. it’s really making me feel heavy. I did have a good time but at the same time i’m not sure if it was right? I hope he doesn’t start ghosting me now. 

3am Thoughts

What a drag this life is🙂

Mood Disorder

Sad
I love my bf a lot... But in the past few days he has been acting different... Doesn't want to talk to me for long... Whenever I call him(after working hrs) his phone is most of the time busy and then he receives the call and when I ask him if he is busy he denies but I can make out just keeps that other person on hold and talks to me for a while and then brings up something related to my schedule uk like oh did you do this? Or are you done with this and blah blah... So I act like I recall it I be like oh yeah I forgot about it and then I hung up the call but then when I call him within next half a min it's again busy... He never feels excited or never asks about anything, if I have got a new parcel and I send him the picture then he just leaves me on seen and over call as well never asks about it even if a month has passed by this behavior really annoys me. He is excited only when I visit place his and of course I get this vibe that oh he loves me only sex... But then he is so sweet at that time I start feeling no he is the one... But then again that sweet behavior is just for few days... I don't have any reason to point out what is going wrong because we connect over call everyday at night... We don't exchange msgs because he doesn't enjoying msging so much but that annoys me coz I feel disconnected for all day long and when we talk at night feels like pushing it... Like literally we have started having awkward silence while talking and earlier it was not like that 

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