Does this happen to you,  tum kisi ki madat krna chahte ho lekin saamne wala smj nhi paata and woh madat rehti hi nhi, scene bann jata hai😶

Feels pathetic, I must say

Gave up on helping unless someone asks for it. 

3am Thoughts

Meri ek female best friend hai lekin i think main usse like krta hu ye baat maine usse btaani bhi chahi lekin vo hasske taal deti thi or vo mere mind mein rehti hai main humesha uske baare mein sochna nhi chahta career pr dhyan kaise du?

Crush

Jab kisi chiz ko shidat se chaho puri kaynaat use tumhe mila ki shaazish mai lag jaati hai... Mujhe bus itna pata hai zindagi ke ant mai joh hota hai sirf accha hota hai.... Agar abhi kuch accha nahi horaha toh samajh lo dost yeh zindagi ka ant nahi... Picture abhi baaki hai mere dost.






Affirmations

Soooooo got into a typical situation today😂 my ex texted hii to me with her pic in which she had applied sindoor and was wearing a saree. I was speechless as she was looking damn hot in that pic, we had a long healthy conversation though she isn't married yet nor she is in another relationship, bda weird sa funny sa feel hua yr, she broke up because she realised after couple of years that she got bored and now in no way i am going back to her, I don't have feelings for her but oh god she looks so perfect in traditional, baat krna start kru dobara?

Girlfriend

Let go... Jitna chota shabd hai... Utna mushkil hai is word pe act karna.. Knowing ki not all are meant to stay in your story.. Ending tak... Still... Dil shayad bolta hai ki... Shayad wo hote.. To kya hota.. Hai na?...
Kisine mujhe kaha tha... Kisise expectations mat rakhna kabhi.. Hota hai kya aisa kabhi?.. Jaha aap dil o jan se apna emotions luta re ho... Or samne se bare minimum expect bhi na kare... Shayad hota hoga... I am really bad at this.... Kisine mujhe kaha tha... Har time situation same nhi rehti... Sach hai.... Par agar situation ke upar apne promises ki ahmiyat kho jaye... To wo kaise vaade the... Jo log karte hai....Abhi is stage pe hu... Ki... Agar koi puchche bhi to bolti hu ki.....Bad days mein tumhe gale lagane... Or hath ko kas ke pakadne ke liye mai hu... Par kya tum end tak chal paoge..?..Khi firse... Bich raaste mein... Hath chor diye to??.... 🤗

So,🙂 I can't get my priorities straight. Please help. Mereko shadi karni ha with the love of my life. He is ready bas ghar bat karni ha. Par agar us sy shadi karli to career ni ban sakta as i am becoming a doctor in delhi and wanted to go abroad (dream). Shadi delay nahi hosakti for my career :( . I love him so much. But i can only choose one. Kya krun? Chor dun career ko us key peeche?

Confusion

Yeh Khaali pan,
yeh tere na hone ka ehsas,
Hmare sath hone wle din ka ehsas,
wo tere befikre andaaz,
lekin ab tera na hona pas deti h wahi ek Khaali pan ka ehsas,

Jalta hoon mai uss ladke se, jisne tujhe mujhse Cheena, 
lekin jb tk tu na chahti tujhe kaise koi mujhse cheentha
Sayad galti meri hi thi,  jism_e_mohabbat k duniya m Ruhani_ishq rah gya mein dhundta,

Galti meri hi h, sayad kabhi tujhe ehsas na  kra paaya apne Ishq ka,
Sayad galti meri hi, khud Krishna na hote hue bhi tujhe apni Radha Maan liya tha 
Sayad mujhe Ishq tha tujhse aur tujhe mere ishq krn se

Aaya hoon mai sb haar kr Mahadev se aas, 
Na manga kabhi inse tere sath kuch bura ho, 
bs manga ab tu mujhse Puri trh se juda ho

Poetry

Aj 8 saal hogya dard abhi tak kam nahi hua, Kya dia tumne Gift me Depression ke Alawa. Ab toh Ghin ati hai khud se pata nahi kab age badhunga life. 

Hello sir, mai ek aise relationship me hu ki ladka bhut pyar krta h mai b krti hu,  support krta h, loyal h but thoda aggressive ho jata h, kbi kbi gusse me bhut rudely bt krta h ar kbi kbi frustration me kuch b bol jata h  inhi sb k chlte mai ek saal phle soch li thi ki mujhe iske sth ni rhna chahiye to mujhse kuch aisi glti hogayi jane anjane jo cheating k andr aata hai...but maine usko sb chij  apne muh se batayi h ki kya hogaya merese, but usne mereko chance diya mujhe bhut guilt hota h ar hota rahega , pr jb jb hmari ladayi hoti h to vo bol jata h tumne aisa kiya ar mere self respect pr bt aa jati hai...aise bht br maine sun liya qki maine glti ki thi accept b kiya...jb last tym hui thi to maine bola ki ab mt bolna mai tut jati hu jb vo sb aane lgta h yd...fr mere me himmat hi nahi rah jati kisi se bt krne ki...usne mujhe chance diya maine bola tha ki jo glti hui vo kbi ni hogi but chance tbi dena jb nayi shuruaat kr sake hm dono , kuch din phle jb ladayi hui to usne vi bt fr se boli ar mai tut chuki hu maine bola tha ki br br vi sunkr mai bardast ni kr paungi ar vi ho raha h...mai kya karu mai bhut tension me hu...mera bilkul kahi bhi man ni lg raha hai... bht drd mhsus ho raha h usase bat na krne ka ar apne liye ghatiya btein sunne ka b  hr baar lgta h thik h jane dete h tym k sath sahi ho jaega but mujhe ni smjh aaa raha ab mai kya karu ? Alg ho jau jo ki bht mushkil ho raha h ya kya karu btaiye please

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