Does this happen to you,  tum kisi ki madat krna chahte ho lekin saamne wala smj nhi paata and woh madat rehti hi nhi, scene bann jata hai😶

Feels pathetic, I must say

Gave up on helping unless someone asks for it. 

3am Thoughts

Today I felt ki hm ab bohot dur ho chuke hai. I was not there for her when she cried and same happens with me. We don't share problems with each other anymore. Aisa nahi hai ki we've anything in mind it's just time and situation. I miss our bond. Aisa nahi hai ki friendship nahi rahi ya Or kuch but hm ab vo nahi rahe. I hurts more than anything. 

Memories

Ye khalipan kyo nhi bharta!💔
Ye tanhai kyo nhi jati
Kyon itne shikwe krta hoon main ajkl
Kyon khud se door rehta hoon main ajkl
Kyon khudko uljha ke rakhta hoon main ajkl
Kyon khuse baat nhi karta main ajkl
Kyon khamoshiyon se dar lgta hai ajkl
Kyon khudko mehsoos nahi karta m ajkl
Kyon apne jakhmo ko marham nhi deta m ajkl
Kyon rona chod diya hai mene ajkl
Kyon ek machine ban gya hoon main ajk
Kyon itna nagative ho gaya hoon main ajkl
Kyon apni problems se door bhgta hoon m ajkl
Kyon khud ko nhi chahta main ajkl
Kyon khwahishen khatm ho gyi h meri ajkl
Kyon sapne nhi dekhta main ajkl



Kya main itna bda ho gya ab
Kya zindgi ab aise hi chlegi ab
Kya jeena chod diya hai maine ab
Kya khud ko kho diya hai maine ab
Kya main khud se kbhi bhi nhi mil paunga ab
Kya subha kbhi nahi aayegi ab










Depression

Esaaa huaaa kisi k saath friends sath bhi h nhi bhi h.. Or personal attachment nhi bs group m bethna gossip that's it. Yarr why they don't match with my vibe 🥴. I need bestie there but...... Even after 4 months i didn't get right girl there for me. 

aaj ki duniya mein koi bhi single nhi hai dost🗿 or jo single hai, wo online matching matching kr rhe.. 🗿🗿 or baad mein heartbreak jhel rhe🗿🗿🗿

Life

Mujhe humesha goal oriented log pasand aate thee isiliye Mera ek hi best friend hai. I have many friends but ek jiske saath lagta hai yess I have a friend. I don't know hum kyu Bina koi goal ke ghoome jaa rahe hai pta nahi kab tak samaj me aayega kya karna hai koi v decision lete hai backfire ho jaata hai. Ek din mujhe ek ladki mili she is my junior usme mujme bhaut intrest dikhaya. She is soo good she wants to become something she just wants to achieve something isiliye wo bhaut hardwork karti hai and mujhe wahi baat uski sabse jaada acchi lagti hai but wo ek din friend se girlfriend ban gayi bhuat jaada time humko Dene lagi like uske classes hai school hai but phir v wo humko bhuat jaada time de rahe hai I know she love me that's why wo mujhe itna importance de rahi hai but mujhe guilt lagta thaa matlab agar wo 3-4months ya 1-2 saal baad bole ki yaar kaash hum tumpe naa time deke goal ko time diye hote toh aaj acche place pe hote isiliye hum thoda rudely baat karte  start kar diye isiliye kyuki wo humko kam time de and thoda sa distance maintain rakhe but wo toh alag hi scence me le li use lga mai usee importance nahi deta I don't love her and Maine phir v apna character leave nahi kiya I know mere liye uski success life se jaada mere liye kuch important nahi hai isiliye maine usse kabhi nahi bola why I'm doing this Maine usse pyaar se batani ki kosis ki apne career pe focus Karo I'm not worth it itna time mat do but I don't want to leave her I really love her but ek din usme mujhe chor diya ye keh ke you don't deserve me coz hum usse kabhi acche se baat nahi karte yaar abb daily toh acche se baat karte hi thee na but Jada nahi kar paate thee guilty feel hota thaa and abb uski bhaut yaad aati hai kuch karne ka mann nahi karta usne mujhe har jagha se block kar diye I know I'm stupid but mere intentions galat nahi thee 
I don't know what to do  bhaut important hai isiliye humusse bhaut pyaar karte hai 

Breakup

Relationship status :

"Jake rakhe saiyaan, Fasa sake na koi"🙂

Zindagi ka safar !! 

Ye zindagi hai musafir 
Na teri khaas hai
Na meri khaas hai
Jahan hasi rahe chehre par
Gham ko koi saya na ho 
Aise waqt ki, tujhe bhi talash hai,
Mujhe bhi talash hai,
Ye zindagi hai musafir
Na teri khaas hai 
Na meri khaas hai.
Koi apna banaake chhod gaya
Koi chahke bhi apna hua nahi
umar bhar nibhaa jaaye,
Aise shakhs ki, tujhe bhi aas hai
Mujhe bhi aas hai
Ye zindagi hai musafir....
Par haqeeqat ke tamache kuch aur hi kehte hain
Is hasi ke peeche gham sab sehte hain
Vo har pal ki khushi, na tere paas hai
Na mere paas hai,
Ye zindagi hai musafir, 
Na teri khaas hai,
Na meri khaas hai !! 

Kitna bura lagta hai jaab you realize that you're single even after having all the qualities of a good partner... 😓
But then when you also realize that relationship nahi hai isliye dusro k jaise khit khit and all same problems nahi hai life is all set from a aspect💕🌚 

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