Does it get any better ?

i want to drop out

School

I want to disappear

Depression

I don't want to be around anymore.

3am Thoughts

i am very very messed up with my ocd

Anxiety

Instead of creating a good life I messed up all


Where are the interesting,+ve energy kinda people at? Let's talk 

Friends

I feel like I'm running after someone who just doesn't care about me...

Lonely

I feel numb. I don't feel happy, I I feel sad.. I just don't feel anything anymore. Writing this at 3am literally and dont know what's gonna happen. Ik things will be fine, it will take time and blah blah . But I don't wanna deal with things. I don't wanna consult a psychologist cause I'll have to unburden myself all over again and I can't afford to go through every dark memory of mine. I'll literally break down. I feel helples sometimes. The only friend I talk to... I can't talk to him anymore. The only girl friend I talk to has her own issues to deal with. College friends literally suck and ex is already dating another girl. I feel lonely even tho I'm around a lot of people. I make YouTube videos, reels, interact but amongst everything I feel lonely. I feel caged. I am no longer interested to do things I loved doing. I hate that I'm not myself anymore. I've to prepare for entrances and I am not able to focus on any shit. There's financial crisis, and mental health issues. Can't even go to my mom cause she has her own issues that she's dealing with. Don't want to burden anyone literally but don't really know what to do. Sometimes I think of quitting but then ik me doing it will be unfair to the people who love me. Ik they exist but it's almost like I don't wanna make anymore efforts. I'm a psychology student and beleive me ik. I've tried everything. Trying to engage in activities.. talk to people... walk ... eh idk what not. Everything just sucks or maybe I overthink a lot. Who know? Anyway hope you're doing great

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