Does anyone wanna hold hands, go to an art gallery and stare at paintings with me? 😔

idk about holding hands but yeah def would like to see an art gallery

Frustration

I feel empty, I feel void of emotion. 

3am Thoughts

OMGGGGGGG! FINALLY! AAAAAAAAHHHH!!!! I THOUGHT I'M GOING TO MOTIVATE MYSELF AGAIN TODAY THAT IT'S JUST ANOTHER FAILURE AND I STILL GOT 80+ DAYS/CHANCE THAT I CAN RENEW MY CERTIFICATION BUT GUESS WHAT? I ALREADY PASSED! OMG! THE CONCENTRATION AND FOCUS, I CAN SAY IT REALLY DEPENDS ON THE ENVIRONMENT AND THE CURRENT SITUATION LIKE OMG! I STILL HAVEN'T CLICK THE 'See your results' BUTTON YET BUT NO MATTER HOW THE RESULT WENT, EVEN IT SHOWS BARE MINIMUM I'M SO HAPPY, I'M SO GLAD BECAUSE I DID IT AND I DON'T HAVE TO SPEND MY DAYS TRYING TO CONVINCE MYSELF THAT IT'S OKAY. OMGGGGGGG! I'M JUST SO GLAD I'M IN THE OFFICE RN AND I'M TRYING NOT TO SCREAM!!! AAAAAAAAHHHH!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA THANK YOU LORD! 💚🙏

Personal Win

I'm new to this app.. Hello there!!.. So how's the weather in your city!??? 

Dreams

Sometimes I became too frank with someone...I speak very frankly with them...I think its not good sometimes...

I just found out that I failed in 3/6 engineering 5th sem subjects. 2020 was rough. I found out that my dad has kidney and heart failure, I saw him nearly die in front of my eyes, I met w an accident and lost a tooth and have bruises all over my legs, my mum fractured her right wrist, so all the burden that was shared between the both of us, fell completely on my head. I had a shop to run, people to cook for and simultaneously attend my online classes. All of our classes were online but my finals were offline. It was a really tough time especially since I could not focus on anything. I looked like I was handling everything well but internally I was broken. I had 3 panic attacks and on the 3rd one, I knew I needed help. So, I started therapy. It went on well at the start but for some reason, I wasn't able to tell the person my complete emotion. I always shyed away or hid certain details. So, I told my friend about it and he said that it's almost like I need to take therapy to go for therapy. That actually made a lot of sense to me but he was just cracking a joke. Anyways, no matter what my past struggles have been, people only look at the outcomes of things. They don't look at the reason for which I failed. I know that it's embarrassing to fail one's own expectations but I wasn't given the right environment to focus and pass them. Idk why no one realizes that. That sucks. Now all that'll remain is that I'm a "failure". None of my accomplishments nor my struggles will ever come into picture here. And that sucks and hurts. My grandma, who I was close to, even more than my parents passed away earlier this year and I sorta started this self blame thing cause I distinctly remember me being happy and then once things settled, the news I got was worse than ever. It happened at every major event that has occurred since 2020. Idk, no matter what I do, I feel like it isn't enough, nothing seems exciting enough or I force myself to not be happy cause things get chaotic if I do. 

Failure

I hate everything. My parents keep on fighting all the time. I feel bad for my mom. She says something and my father literally shouts on her. I know she says weird stuff all the time but there are better ways to deal with someone or put your thoughts out. Idk. I have to live with them. My siblings are staying outside. So I am here. But the environment gives me stress. I am not able to focus. I feel so drained out. I keep thinking about both of them. And how bad marriages can turn. I am losing hope for myself. 

Family

Hi, I am a 19 year old girl. I have an anxiety disorder, and I get really upset by the small events taking place in my life. I keep on overthinking, I would love to connect  and have a pleasant chat. 

Anxiety

Hello. Why do people who love us hurt us? i carry so much hurt by my family of origin, my dadi who claims to love me the most..i almost don't know what to do. 
It sucks here in isloation and i don't know how long will this motivation last. 

My mom video called me, asked me to forgive them and come back to their house when i live in a pg... aise thode hota hai?

What guarantee do i have they will not abuse or be toxic again?
i feel uncertain, lost, lonely and wondering. 
i don't know the defination of 'love;/'family' or 'home'.... but just being. Just floating. Just sailing.
i hope i'm not alone..the meaning of love has changed,i have to teach myself that..it's strenous but just peeking out to hope. 

I told mom i will go after 2-3 months..i need time. 

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