Do you know how beautiful you are? Do you know how you make the insides of the people crumble when you laugh your glittery laugh? That size does not matter. No matter if your waist is 22 or 38, you are beautiful. You are one of your kind. You do not have to be reclusive anymore- come out into the sunshine, eat, work and play, and do not care about what others say. It is your life and you will get just one. Not ever let anyone else dictate you their terms, because life does not have any. Because you are amazing, just the way you are. 

This is so empowering. It's refreshing to see a positive self perspective in a world where everyone is fighting with their own selves

This is exactly what me and a lot of other people will need to survive the day.

Women Empowerment

Why is it that when men talk of sex it is considered pervert and when women talk it is considered normal???

Lonely

Protect yourself from your thoughts. 
_rumi

Quotes

This society is unjust. The world is cruel. I believe life is devoid of any purpose and this very aspect causes all the pain and hardships that people go through amount to nothing. I do not see any point in aimlessly existing as I would be nothing more than a corporate slave. I do not have any financial dependents or anyone else to worry about thanks to my low self-esteem and social anxiety. I would like to hear other's inputs.

Self Esteem

Happy, can talk here. 

Affirmations

Kohli 💔

Life

You could read every single post about love and still collect red flags as trophies. You could mug up every rule about adulting, and still stand clueless at 30. You could pledge by every self-love quote, and still feel guilty for choosing yourself over others. And that’s okay.

That’s okay because we aren’t machines. We don’t learn by patterns and external information, we learn by experiences. So cut yourself some slack if you aren’t going by the book. You will figure it out in the coming chapters. Just like the rest of us.

Love

zero experience with girls 
 

1. I'm 28, I've never been with a girl. 
 
 
2. I'm fixated on the past love affairs of the girl I like. 
  
 
3. The very thought that some other guys have been with her makes me frustrated and dispirited. 
   
 
4. I'm a cowardly and faint-hearted person, despite the fact that I've been going to the gym regularly for more than 2 years (weight lifting and martial arts) 
   
 
5. I'm even afraid to go to a prostitute. 
  
 
6. Girls feel that I'm weak and immature and do not perceive me as a partner. 
 
  
7. Talking with girls is generally rather difficult for me, I think they often find me creepy. 
  
 
Please no need to tell me that some other people have even worse situations, it would be a cold comfort. I genuinely believe that a desire being liked by someone you like is totally natural and fair.

One Sided Love

Hello..i am lookinng down upon myself...
i tried to leave my abusive dysfunctional home and family many times in the past5 yrs, but ever  moved out until 2020. Even after that i tried many times to shift out, but never could really be happy to settle at one place..
i kept looking down upon myself that why can't i settle unlike others, until i read yesterday that when u have lived in an unpredictable and chaotic home , change can be scary as it's full of unpredictablity and your used to vibe to that...
i felt pacified..
today is my brother's bday and last night when i went out for his cake cutting out of the room to the drawing room, i got triggered by him and made it about me and got angry and lost my patience... 
and yes he was being unreasonable and in denial, no doubt but i feel horrible
idk if its isolation of covid of bounty of triggers, off late, my anxiety has been on peak, with a gazillion thoughts of guilt, regret, over-introspection, thinking abt past negatively, self-others-life criticism at peak, selfloathing at extreme.

Last night i was watching a movie, wanted to settle down, relax and do some 2-3 planned work. But triggers one after the other, and crying spells made me mentally exhausted, sleepy and mind not working. After much guilt, i slept..i thank god woke up at 6, with thoughts, brushed them and slept in 2 min. From 7.30-8.30, lots of triggers, won over some, got affected n reacted at some...and now, my fresh happy mind in convoluted with crazy thoughts every milli second again, of guilt, looking down upon self in every possible way and comparing myself to so many people and friends and cousins of my age who made it successful and travelled and staying alone from families and are being strong and working are so bold and confident.
> But also reminding myself, after feeling all the crap and exhaustion atm, telling myself:
this too shall pass, i wil get through this, sometime i will be happy and joyour n free, i shouldn't compare myself to others as i have my own circumstances, survival mode, each to its own story...
and even those seemingly perfect people have their imperfection,lows, triggers and crazy breakdowns..

i am human and should be kind to myself and others, and mostly myself

as much bad as i am feeling being in my shoes, being weak and being here, in my chaotic home and not being able to work as triggers keep happening more often than not... 
but maybe' this is 'for now'; i will be fine...and i have the right to watch movie, chill..i am heard, understood 'no many how many years i lose to trauma, mental illness, abuse etc..i can still have a great life. 

Thanks for hearing me out..venting and sharing more.

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts