do you guys have a urge to be with someone who genuinely cares for you, who makes sure you are happy, and u do the same in return.? do you feel like you really need a comfort person , whom u can run to whenever something goes wrong, whenever you are down, and that person then makes sure u get over it and helps you be you and be happy all the time... 

-maybe you already have someone or maybe u like your own company the most ;) thats actually good btw.

Yeah search never ceases for such person 

Love

What am I doing collecting so many kitties today? So far I have six cats in my backyard. ￼

Happy

Will never understand a guys logic when it comes to jealousy. How can you possibly be jealous of seeing me with someone else after two years of us being apart?? You broke up with me! 

3am Thoughts

I hate myself. Don't want to fall again in this spiral of one sided love. I know it's bad for me to start loving someone even without knowing the person completely. Then nothing happens and I end up feeling hurt. And after sometime I realise they weren't the right person for me. Still, still I fall for people like this. I don't know what I can do to avoid this attraction. I don't want to feel sad anymore because I started loving someone. I have so much love to give, but only I would have received even a percentage of it back.

Life is good. I am getting male attention from 5 different ppl. Tho I miss Vibing with the feminine energy.  It's good n all getting attention from opposite gender . But I miss my girl friends. 
Ps : if you are a girl hmu .

Today my girl best friend remove me from insta what should I do

Anxiety

I had always thought revealing vulnerabilities amounted to seeking sympathy and had dealt with it on my own for a long time which took away my mental peace. Now, I understand that it's important for to accept myself the way I am, to be honest to myself. Now, I don't shy away from slowing my scars.

Compassion

Heal&feel.

Motivation

Dear ma,
Maybe one day you will see, that things were never that easy for me as you thought it is. I never excelled anywhere, I never had the audacity to make you proud. I never had any friends in 18 years of life. I am always sidelined by everyone . I’m never invited to any fancy parties, even if I were ,my confidence crumbled me up. My high school year never has given me any reason to smile. 10th ended but not my 'miseries ’ . The first time I realised that I’m a real failure is when I didn’t get accepted in Dps Vasant Kunj. I felt what real heartbreak felt like. Every time any topic related to 11th school change/ delhi domicile came up. This failing memory came to my mind. 11th starting- I did not become a scholar. I was sooo happy that even though I got 87% in 10th boards I will finally become a scholar and I’ll get to see that proud smile on your all faces my name will be called up on stage. But the rules changed last moment and so did my happiness. Only 90% above were awarded and the rest were left to self doubt their worth. That was the first time I cried in school and was made fun of. Showing Emotions never payed my off well. Then came my 17th bday. I finally decided to come out of my shell and celebrate my bday with my ‘friends’. But as usual no one showed up except 2 ppl and I had invited 12 people. I had to beg and cry on birthday for them to show up. Maybe that’s why I’ve become so clingy to keep the rest of the people in my life. Few humans have done dirty to me soo many times but my over-forgiving nature hops in bw me and my self respect. 11th final I failed in chem. I had to make my dad feel embarrassed in front of my teacher. Never did he got to hear any appreciation about me yet here we were sitting in the reception hearing all kinds of ugly things he could. This was the moment I thought ki ab bass. Aur nahi hoga. Khatam kar deti hoon ye sab. I just wanted to leave this world. Dying felt the only reasonable answer to my questions. I was sooo heartbroken as if I would burst. My chest felt heavy, my eyes burned, my tongue dried up whenever I thought about it. That anxiety was killing me from the inside. Self harm seemed the right option. Shameless Aahana again is failing everywhere today in 12th grade. I’m just a disappointed who only knows how to waste their parents money on fancy coaching who inly just want to see their child rise. But how do I tell you that this child is good for nothing? This child will only be a disgrace to u ppl. Because my hardwork is never enough to get into a good college. And I will continue to be a disappointing child. Maybe that’s why my frustration gets out here and there.When shaurya (younger brother) also says that I get bad grades, I get all hyper because I’ve never been good at it. And it is my weak spot. In short my choti si life had never been in my favor. And I know I will continue being an embarrassment. Pls don’t keep any expectations from me
Aahana
I wrote this a few days back after my mom and I got into a bad fight. I never planned on sharing this with anyone. Yet here i am



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