Do you ever get the sudden urge to distance yourself from everyone and everything?

But that distance heals you the most from everyone & everything🙆‍♂️

3am Thoughts

We talked a lot earlier but now we have stoppped talking and she doesn't seems to care what should I do? I love her more than anything I always dream about her 😣 feels like she's getting away :(

Depression

Whenever I am studying or learning, there comes the little a*ss critic in my head saying "what a moron. You can't do this. You will not win this and you will not pass your exams. What if you fail?! You are a failure and you will lose for sure" 
I am scared the most that the voice in my head might be right. But I don't want it to be right. I   want to study, stop this voice from controlling me and do extremely well on my exams. I can't seem to make it shut up and it keeps on blabbing and bringing down my confidence 
What do I do? Anyone, please? 

Conflict

I feeling like I don’t need to be in this world, like i always care about  how everyone aroung me feel ( and i realy care because I always want to help), never ask me if i’m okay… I don’t now how to express my feelings right now

I just want to desepear…that will be great cuz anyone will care i guess

Soo my boyfriend told me he needs space, we are on a break till he feels alright. I just miss him ,he is just going through a lot rn.

Boyfriend

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people's thinking.

Motivation

Country? 

Why am I so stupid, I don't understand why my parents had 3 perfect children but then there is me...
I hate asking my sister for help because she always gets so verbally rude, always saying how stupid and how much of an idiot I am,  sometimes she gets physical but nothing serious, more like shoving her finger on the side of my head or just hitting my head as if I will miraculously be smart. I just sit there and take it all in. But when I don't ask for help even though I do she yells at me for not "asking". Either way, I'll get yelled at. Yk today we were looking at my English assignments and she was telling me why I haven't done them and I said It was hard which it is, I've always struggled with this. She told me I was lying and that I'm just being lazy...and she went on a rant after that. I just sat there looking down on my computer pretending to be reading an assignment as she continued, I was holding in my tears and I've been doing so for the past 6h. I can tell I have a lot bottled in but I can't cry here, not know....I hate it here, I want to cut.

I'm just tired! I'm just tired! Of being scared of all the time, not knowing why. I'm tired of being trying to change and not knowing how. Because however much I do! Change!
I'm left with me! 💔

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