Do you ever feel that you are not putting yourself first in some situations, and everybody else is just looking for their own selfish needs and then you get a sudden urge to put yourself first, but then you end up in a fight with your close ones😤😤

From childhood it is put in our heads that "sharing is caring" so much that if we ever buy stuff only for ourselves, it will be considered selfish, and the word selfish itself is considered as bad. 

Their mindsets are really narrow minded. 

It's ok people can't accept the change suddenly when they accepted you as selfless person. Give them some time everything will be ok. I really appreciate you for realizing and putting yourself first. It's a good thing.

Anger Issues

I always wonder about concept of Families and Marriage!
Marriage is suppose to be equal nd just.
In terms of adjustments and changes
But how the society system works is a little beyond my understanding..
When a girl marries a boy she takes his surname, shifts to his house, put his parents first then hers, adapt her life and become a part of his
While the guy is just introducing her to his big life
He also adjusts but never make his whole life the other person cause his life and surrounding remains the same.. 
His urge to help is parents is driven from inside and not adaptive while acknowledging girls parents is just a duty to do in few months
If those changes are expected to be made by a boy, will anyone ever do that?

A equal change would be both living in a new apartment jointly owned living by themselves earning together doing chores together make each other there whole life while occasionally meeting friends, families and parents of both sides..

But expecting that in this society is like wanting a guy to get seperate from his parents or not being the adjustable girl or like its abnormal or mean

How to approach something like that..
How to feel equal and just and yet not draw parents and sons apart

I dont know how to think about this!

3am Thoughts

Left behind. 

I’m 20 and I feel I still need an adult

Depression

I'm back frm my ghosting era!!!

i was sa’d when they thought i was sleep. i was 11. and recently found the shirt & pants from when it happened it. im going to throw it away and start fresh plus. ill be moving soon. 

i need support.

Women Safety

so, i have no friends atm only a boyfriend so needed someone to talk to about things, i’ve been going through something quite weird and confusing w my boyfriend and i just feel like i’ve turned into a person i never wanted to be, i’m just constantly thinking what if he’s thought about breaking up before, what if he thinks there’s more attractive girls than me, what if he’s doing things behind my back, i just feel like i constantly have to ask him questions so that i have reassurance but that just makes me feel controlling, just needed someone to talk to so any reply would help

Lonely

I feed a street dog every night 
It got used to us 
Today it was raining so I thought I should wait for sometime and then go and put his food ( we usually feed around 9 pm ) 
Today I went at 11 pm to check if he was still there  ( coz it was still drizzling ) 
He was in a cellar an  appartment (neighborhood apartment)
He was locked from outside 
I don't know if he usually sleeps in the cellar or not 
I called him and opened the gate he reluctantly came out and I thought he was feeling cold and didn't want to come out 
I kept his food and today (infront of our gate)it was unusual
He comes into our parking area sometimes when invited 
He usually just enters the gate but never really check the house surrounding
Today I tried to call him but he checked our parking lot/ varanda 
He didn't even touch the food 
I thought he was not hungry and thought of taking him back the cellar where he was first waiting 
I showed him the gate 
Opened the gate but he didn't want to go inside
 It was drizzling outside ,it was cold 
But he didn't go inside
I didn't know what to do 
It was 11 pm and I was scared what to do 
I was confused 
I didn't want to wake up the watchman of that apartment 
And the dog wasn't going in 
He was trying to eat leaves and grass 
He was uncomfortable I understood that 
But I didn't know what to do 
So I just closed the gate of that apartment ( I didn't put the bolt)
I cannot bring him to my house either 
Coz if we sleep we don't know and we can't open the gate when he wants to go out 

I left him ( he was eating grass , sneezing and its unusual) 
Now I have the guilty because I didn't lock the gate of that apartment 
I made the dog come out to feed him 
Now what if he can't go into that apartment? 
Ps ( there are other under construction  apartments for him to sleep but I am not sure ) 
Did I do anything wrong ? 
Please comment 
I am worried

Confusion

Kaisa feel!! Kaise bolu alone hu but thik hai ab jb expectations hee nai toh Thora jeene ka bahana mil jata hai aur sikhne ko bahut si baatein milti hai ek baat toh hai khud se accha koi nai bs hm smjhna hee nai chahte hai
Aaplogg ka kaisa hai?

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