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Ever since I was sexually assaulted, I've not been able to go out and meet new people. This was a year ago..still stuck there mentally I fear

What do I do?
There's so much anger, at him and myself. 
Distrust, in the world, in myself 

Exhausted

Mornings sucks!!! :)

Was feeling depressed for past few days, had a spiral mush in my mind...got my thoughts together now and im feeling better

Anxiety

Halooooo

3am Thoughts

Hey! I have always been very shy in opening up and talking to people, let alone infront of a camera. This is because of my problem of stuttering. I have always been very under-confident. But now, since I came to college, i have gained a lot of confidence, thanks to my english teacher. She pushed me to constantly improve myself. Now i am able to talk to people comfortably. I have embraced myself.

Physical Health

    The tears from the sea
    The dirt from the ashes has claimed me
    And has filled me with agony.
    Tragedy, was here no rays of sunshine.
    Just tears and dirt combined.
-Just Fellings Poetry

Poetry

There are days when I feel suicidal. Iv lost hope. I can do any better. Im good at anything. My boyfriend choose some one else over for marriage.arranged marriage! I wonder what is wrong with me?? Im I good o not?? Then why didn't he take a stand?  He said his family is more important than anyone else in the world. Why I'm I abandoned?? 

How should I build my confidence again??

Self love n positivity again??

.put myself together again.

This process.

Im on sleeping pills and anti depressant for now.

Yeh phase kab khatam hoga.

Im just sleeping n sleeping.

I want to be self loving and positive and attract people on the same page as me.. but how is it possible when I'm spiralling and being triggered.

I feel like ending my life.

Kuch hope hi nhi hai kuch acha hone ka.  

Self Harm

Randome Topic( thought provoking )

These were the last words of a 23-year-old girl ####recently.

Now, we will not go into the depth of the matter. We won’t discuss the technicalities of what was wrong or not.

But, do you see something in the starting lines? What she was saying is “I don’t want to be a human again. I don’t want to live in today’s world. I don’t want to love again.”

We are humans. Oh sorry! we are humans-cum-animals. Even we don’t fall into the category of animals because animals don’t hurt anyone intentionally.

Then, what we are? We have to introspect ourselves to know Who we are?

We have converted our loved ones into THINGS. Our ego loves to possess. In most of the so-called relationships, one is possessing the other. Every relationship starts with love, care and respect and ends with possession. Because we are not lovers. We are egos who love to possess things.

One is dominating the other. One is superior to others.

Where we are heading? Where we are taking ourselves? What we have become?

Love, compassion, respect and trust is missing in today’s world.

In fact, we are love. Love is our being. But, we have left that being far behind. We have become things. And the same we are doing with others. We are changing them into things. And for your kind information, things can’t love.

You will read this answer and then you will forget. You will think like, no, I am not a thing. I am still human. 7 billion people are thinking the same. No one is ready to change themselves. Everyone thinks that the problem is on the other. I am perfect.

Self-Discovery, introspection and self-knowledge is missing from today’s world. And this is the biggest problem of our times.

Be Happy My Friend.


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