Damn! Life is so shit and yet so amazing. 
WTF is up with this dual nature of existence.

That statement is very relateable in itself👌

But sometimes god and nature acts together to the life that’s known as ‘’hope’’

3am Thoughts

Why can't some people accept us the way we are. Yes i get very anxious, yes i get very emotional, yes I've so many mood swings. But 'love you with your every flaw' means different to him. Controlling my certain actions will not remove my anxious of knowing everything about upcoming college. Where I'll be living 3 years. You are only creating a void for you in heart you claim to be yours. Labeling your insecurity and trust issues with 'care and protection' wouldn't make you the king of my heart. 

Anxiety

Tune hi ki manmaani
Ek bhi na meri maani
Aise kyun sataaya maahiya💔

I have been staying in hostel for almost 5 years now but these days I feel I'm getting kinda homesick not particularly homesick it's that stupid feeling you get when you are away from your safe zone..some sort of an alien feeling which is sooo uncomfortable...it's soo hard for me...life is soo hard for me..i wish i could stay happy like everyone ..be happy like everyone..i wish i could stop missing my bf and just let down the weight of everything and just be happy😖

Books

I wanted him for myself so that i can give him the love he deserves. 

Love

Yesterday evening I met her after talking almost like 3 months on this app. We had a good bonding and spend good spicy time, late she asked me that i won't get angry if she stay honest to me and what she said is that she is engaged and about to get married in November. 
I didn't say and simple walk back to my hotel room. Now should i continue this? Or should I regret and leave. 
We had good time always but I think it's useless to think of committed and continue the emotional support and physical benefits. 

Long Distance Relationship

I still try to figure out where things went wrong between us, whether it was me or you or just the situation. But I still miss the feeling i had for you. That adore 🥰 i used to feel when i see you. I don't think i will get the same for anyone else.

Breakup

Today, I was told to talk about the person whom I admire the most and why. I didn't know whom i admire so that i created a fake friend and said that her life is beautiful even with all the hardships and they way she presents herself with the people around is admiring. After I have done talking, I realised that I was talking about me.

Maybe I'm not ready to accept that I admire myself. How to deal with this. It's good to listen as a story of someone else but accepting that my life is going in a good path after a long time SCARES THE SHIT OUT OF ME😓

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