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3am Thoughts

Things have been going good for me for the past few months but I always feel that something is missing out of my life, like I'm not doing what I was born to do. I know why I feel like this but I'm scared to go back . It's been slightly over a year and I'm scared that if I go back to doing what I love so much I may not be the best at it anymore and I don't think I can take that .

Motivation

i feel that i'll be able to find someone or not for me 

Relationships

I’m in a situation where the love of my life is always around me but I can never be with them, they are always talking to other people, sleeping with them, and spending all of their free time with these random people. I feel incredibly heart broken to see this person if I’m not with them and anxious all the time that I was never good enough for them, I cry constantly thinking that I was never good enough for them but I still love them regardless.

stop paying much attention to it and half of your problem is solved

Other

I am just anxious. I feel I am becoming mentally ill. With everyone I talk and behave completely normal but within I am just dying. I don't know I no more feel like expressing here too. It makes me feel like I am just ranting. I really wanted to consult a psychologist, but my parents think it's all bullshit. They do have a hint of my mental health but they never really have much time to think about it. I take medicine and I feel those medicines is worsening up my mental health. I can't talk to my doctor about it due to the presence of my parents. I have loads of upcoming entrance exams which will be deciding my life ahead. I have also made myself away from all my friends. For me going out or meeting anyone feels like a nightmare. I don't feel like getting close to anyone. I want to make myself focused on studies but I feel I can't do that without clearing my mind by talking to a psychologist. I feel it's high time to take some action or else life will get more worse with time. I really wish I could quit forever.

Mental Health

Anyone up for texting ?

You know, I feel like I don't really exist in anyone's lives, not even my family members'. My brother posts stuff on his social media but none of them ever mentions me. My mom, dad and bro talk about so many things, but I can rarely join in the conversation. It's really weird. I don't interact much with any of them, yet I sorta wanna/expect to be in their lives? We live under the same roof, yet it feels like those three are leading a life completely different than mine, as though our lives are completely detached and unrelated. Though we are bound by this thing called 'family', it doesn't feel like our paths actually cross much, let alone be interwined together. It's really weird. I really don't want to exist, I wish I never did. And I never really interact with anyone. Yet, I, too, sometimes think, maybe it wouldn't be that bad to be a part of someone- anyone's life. Maybe it wouldn't feel bad to be a part of someone's something. I try hard to conceal my existence, pretending I don't exist. And I guess at some point, it turned into reality and now maybe I truly am nonexistent. Not that I particularly mind tho, given that that's what I wanted. Still, why does it hurt sometimes? I wish my feelings weren't this contradictory. I wish feelings didn't exist. I wish I didn't exist.

It might feel difficult, but the other side of ending a toxic relationship is the beginning of self-love!!! #chooseyourself 

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