Could you guys just shower me with positive affirmations. . I've had a bad day. Trying to be hopeful. Lots of love. 

Hahah i'm not upset brother. i'm Feeling good like i shoul 🎶 🎵 😆♥️

Happiness or something bad or sad is just a cloud and you're the sky. Clouds will stay in the sky for a while and disappear in a thin air and of course another clouds will appear 

I would have given you a hug brother but it's not possible hahaha so just go and give a tight hug to your parents you'll feel much better.

Compassion

I just screamed that I should kill myself

Suicidal Ideation

Why is it have to be the closest one that gave us the most pain. 

I hate that. I hate the fact that every time I feel sad my brain would constantly told me that I just crave for attention.

These 20's are the hardest... Now as grown up you get many responsibilities... Have to look after fam as they start to expect so many things from you... Now you can't cry on small things... Now can't be stubborn for things... Have to stand on own feet start earning which is difficult... Have to become financially independent... can't stay up till midnight scrolling reels coz got to get up early next morning (tiredness already takes over as we leave office). sometimes can't even catchup with frnds.. Struggles and failures...  You meet people... become frnds you love you fight you lose them... feel of other frnds doing better than us... Regretting some decisions and things... Itni si zindagi aur ye bade bade problems... 















Adulting

I feel defeated. I try so hard to get rid of these feelings I have for my ex and mind you what he did to me is grounds for me to hate him forever, but I just can’t bring myself to hate him like I’m suppose to. I love him. I never told him but I’m definitely not telling him now. It makes it no better we share a kid together either 😔

3am Thoughts

There are so many people rn that are trying to heal from things they don’t speak about. I am one of them, and so far, I can only try, I can only hope. But we’ll be okay, I believe that these painful days shall pass. Please believe in yourself, you’re gonna figure it out like always. <3

Who here is into reading?

It's been a lot lately. I thought I was doing good. Until something triggered me. Everything then shattered, everything that I was holding on to. 
I was talking to a friend and he brings up something from the past and blames me. And it triggered me. Idk it hurts, it fucking hurts. 
This person is a close and important friend. And always talks about how important I'm in his life. I don't feel the same way, I mean he is important but not that I will dedicate all my life to him, not like I want to tell him everything happening around me. I'm not good at talking in calls. I already told him that, but he insists on doing that. I started feeling it toxic. Idk he is important, but this is not what I signed up for. Because everytime we talk I end up hurting one way or other. He doesn't know anything about this and I cannot explain it to him. I feel like I'm guilty of something I didn't do, like there is a need to do. What the fuck. Why should I entertain them just because they are missing me. 
Even if I'm wrong here, idk I don't feel like talking to him. I can't take it anymore. 

Friends

Ok. So i have realized. I don't have friends no more. With every fall, with every betrayal, with every battle with every abandonment i have lost parts of myself. It's not easy to make friends again now. Feels like I'm lacking in so many things, when ppl look at me , hear me, speak to me. I can't even talk and converse with ppl like i used to, which is very much needed in the world um stepping into. 
Today too, i stood alone eating my plate, drank the whole hot bubbling coffee in one sip and ran to sit down in my seat on my phone. Not that I didn't try, i tried speaking, striking up a convo with so many others there since we're in the same batch, I'm new. But everyone already had their gangs their common stories and experiences. 

Mom said beauty is the first thing that attracts anyone, no matter how much self love, bracing all ur flaws in all this is shouted in rallys. I'm not necessarily beautiful not am i stunningly ugly. But i know for a fact i have a warm heart, i have the kind of love and light that's rare in people these days ( understood this by horrible experiences myself). But that is considerably not enough today. 

I could've nearly cried today, but i held an important position today, couldn't afford to melt away like that. Despite of all that, no one wanted to talk to me or make me their friend. 
It's weird ik but at the same time it makes me sad. Like a mourning to the person i used to be. And now i can't no matter how much I tried. 

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