Confused
Should I still be with him even if he has broken my heart hundred of times

Hey, It truly depends. If he is hurting you again and again, he has taken you for granted. I think you should take space from him and let him know this is unacceptable!

Doesn't matter how much you him,if there is no respect then no reason to hold back.

To be honest I really don't get boys at times sometimes they pretend that the care sometimes they act completely anonymous . But girl stay strong if he is ment for you he will find a way just believe in your love

Depression

The universe has put me through so much shit, that I can't even tell if it wants me alive or dead anymore. I have never been able to actually say, 
"Thank god that happened back then. I'm much happier now." Nope, never 

Conflict

Today is the worst day of my life as i found her cheating on me with her best friend. She was too toxic but still i loved her,  i don't know my fault by i think giving her extra space took her away. I don't think I'll be able to be in a relationship again ever. 

Breakup

Have you ever felt like your heart no longer tells you what's right or wrong, rather it's just the facts in your brain which you follow as commands? Let me elaborate further. Have you felt like you have forgotten your morals, your core, everything you stand for, even when in reality you mentally recall it very well but you don't FEEL like you know it? It's as if everything is a blur, or in the gray between completely right and completely wrong. It's a scary feeling. It's as if one loses themselves, or if they go numb or shut down. Please let me know I'm not alone. I'm not a bad person, nor would ever want to be, but I am scared of what my subconscious could be capable of. Maybe I am in some kind of shock or something, I honestly don't know anymore.

People are afraid to speak up when answered with anger

3am Thoughts

People don’t want to know what you do. 
They want to know why you do. 

I guess new people will come into our lives eventually and fill the void we have created due to past relationships. Life is the best teacher and time is the principal of that school 🙊

As the days past, I find it hard to talk to anyone about how I feel. This year, I have cut connections with a previously manipulative friend and lost multiple friends in the process. Due to quarantine, I ended up gaining social anxiety to talk to anyone online. It was already hard enough that I am isolated from everyone in real life, I find it hard to talk to anyone at all.

Whenever I try to say something to my friends, I feel more insecure and pull back. They all seem to be having more fun without me, they have similar interests and likings while I was at the sidelines watching... I didnt mind this at first, until it starts to get burdening. I actively tried to start conversations to join in with them, and get shut down anyway. I dont want to overthink this, but I feel like I have no one to trust... No one to talk to, befriend or anything. I have been spending most my days isolated again, watching youtube and losing interests in things I used to love doing.

Sometimes I get urges... I realize I am making up scenarios in my head, I dont want to twist the ideals of my friends badly. I feel like I did something wrong each time, when nothing has even happened. I feel like reopening the old scars on my arm, and sometimes it itches or burns as well regardless of healing. And sometimes... I get thoughts of cutting connections with the manipulative friend was the good thing to do. 

I kind of want the numbness to set back in, so I can forget easier... And pretend I was smiling the entire time. Because not everyday is bad, and now it seems like it is the only thing I can focus on. Apologies...

Why the hell every time I regret on my decision what is the best way to took good decisions .

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