Confused and feared
Don't know what to do 
But i just move forward no matter what 

3am Thoughts

In love with someone who doesn't even exist .

Hallucination

There was this guy l met today he knew freaking 6 language. I am in love with him rn and have huge crush. And he was hot af

I feel really sad today. SUSHANT SINGH RAJPUT a versatya actor and a very nice person always wearing a smile on his face committed suicide. Friends there are times when you were at your weakest,but you battled all alone and survived!! 
The day when you fell a thousand times and there was no one to hold you back
The day you regretted missing those opportunities.
It was the day you decided giving yourself all the love and pamper.
That you knew you deserved ALWAYS.
It was the day you discovered that if you had the calibre in you to be back from hell with a smiling face.then you have had all in YOU, ALWAYS!
NOT GIVING UP AND FIGHTING UNTIL YOU SUCCEED , that's my love is COURAGE whose utmost source is YOU.
JUST SPEAK UP ,SHARE ,we all do this together friends.

Friends

so petty much my good online friend blocked me on everything. she blocked me last saturday i didn’t know why. we didn’t fight for nothing but she was just being dry asl. then she left me on seen for 3 hours, i texted her saying “hey” and then i woke up blocked on everything. so i couldn’t contact her. a day later i realized i still had her xbox account added. so i texted her saying like “why did you block me nd stuff” then she replied back saying how she couldn’t do this anymore and that she needed space and how she wishes me the best. gosh i miss her.💔

I'M  Tired and Lonely , 
I feel like I'm a disappointment to my parents . Not able to cope up with studies . 
Frankly, not feeling to study at all . Been depressed lately. The only thing I do is hurt my parents and loved ones  . All they want me is to study .  Either u are studious or hottest person .  I'm always hanging in the middle . People whom I care ab the most  are either toxic or they just walk out of my life .  I always overthink and blame myself . I have 0 motivation and no positivity . I envy all those people who believe in 'SELF LOVE' . I always end up thinking is it even worth staying alive ? I just dream big and wait for an opportunity for me to shine  . I know that I should work on myself but nothings' helping me .  I'm better off dead then no one would end up regretting or being hurt permanent  ,its only temporary . Death  would fade away with time . I would keep feeling low and guilty If I hurt them . Wouldn't it be a lot easier for me and my people to face a temporary pain when I'm not alive anymore  than permanently scarring them and myself  being alive ? 
Taken tests where the results are I'm depressed .  I keep thinking to myself .....
Am I really depressed ? I mean people go through much more  and bare with it . 
People  expect allot from me but I am far from reaching their expectation .  
I was always kind to people around me but I end up getting hurt always . I pretended to be cold person and not give a damn  ( not mean ) but I felt bad for them . Parents really thought that if they show me my downs then I might learn how to tackle them  instead I keep feeling low and low . I have learnt how to ignore those mean words but it keeps getting worse and worse .  My mom  is going through a lot . There's still allot of family problems  . 

WHAT WILL ME STAYING ALIVE WILL DO ANY BETTER ... 
I'M TIRED OF ALL OF THIS  EMPTINESS  (there's still more )  
 I'm sorry for being such a gloomy person . SORRY SORRY SORRY . 
  I WANNA END ALL OF IT , ALL OF IT !
                                                                                                                       :)

Lonely

Dill mai bsa kr rakhu
Ya kagzo par chap du tujhe
Palko pe bitha ke rakhu
Ya akho se utar du tujhe
Mere dill se jaise tune khela hai meri jann
Bta tere jeetne pe konsa inam du tujhe

I have made a mistake in the expense sheet and claimed for it it's just a change of 100/- rupees but still I am worried that they might think that I did that to take extra money and that I have always been doing this. I am worried what would they think about. I am always stressed out on it. 

Work

Is it safe to stay in hotel alone? Actually I have one exam nd I need to visit another city one day before the exam.

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