CONFESSION 3: 

What's it is like having a voice in digital World? I always wondered.

I post something and few people will provide unsolicited advice on comments.

But why ? 

Okays, it open. 

I must post to people to look at me. But not with an validation to make. 

It is just a voice, to attract like minded people and connect and socialize. 
Humans are social animal. But enough of hiding. Being real is freedom. Facing the life as it comes instead of running from it or fighting from it. 

Just do what you think you need to do. 

Forgetting about right or wrong. 
Million people billion opinions. 
If i bother them all in my head , my voice will never come back to speak what it feels. invention is necessity of mother. And great invention come out of in the form of voice, the voice of mind. 

I must be open now. Open, strong, untouchable, incredible. 

Like sun. 

जया🐚

INFINITY 

3am Thoughts

Sports missing from my neighbourhood //noida

Life

Koi phn km chlane ka upayy btaiye maharaj!! Yeh bht zyada ho rha h ab mera.. Koi app ya kuch jisee m phn na use kru jb m chahuu... Ek zen mode suna tha mene usse sirf calls utha skte h msges nhi. Jitna time hmne set kiya uthna vqt. But i m worried if there will be any urgent. Then what i doo... Btaoo pls koi phn km kese kru.. M akeli hoti hu isliye bs phn use krti rehti pr mujhe thoda sa door jana isme koiii upay???? 

Coming Out

It has to end, you know.  The self - hatred.  The collective shaming.  The disdain for other.  The emotional armor.  The buried pain.  The displaced humans.  The misplaced kindness.  The repressed trauma.  The fake positivity.  The meaningless materialism.  The forgotten heart.  It has to begin, you know.  The self - love.  The collective healing.  The love for other.  The emotional release.  The liberated pain.  The welcomed humans.  The perpetual kindness.  The honored story.  The authentic feeling.  The meaningful purpose.  The open heart.  
**It's time.**

- *unknown*

Mental Wellbeing

This post is , let's say, about how we see problems and emotions and my deliberate attempt to analyse few things. I would encourage you all to participate in the discussion and put forth your views. 
So here it goes. 
I think we are somehow wired to expect no problems or hiccups in our paths. When that doesn't happen in real life , we almost get stuck and find difficult to move ahead. It takes lot of time adjust. At times we don't  heal at all. One of the things that causes this , is because we didn't expect it to happen . The solution ?? Well one can deduce: is to simply be prepared for it and think of a plan B. (This process is iterative, like plan C if B fails and so on).
The other important thing being - we cannot separate the controllables from the non controllables. Emotions are ,let's say brains response triggered due to external factors and therefore we have difficulty controlling them. But if we start asking questions , we understand better and can pinpoint the problem. ' I don't feel well ' is a vague statement (though it is true) because you don't get any direction to work upon or move ahead. But you can ask questions : why don't I feel well ?( I had a terrible relationship / I am not doing good on a job / I am going to have additional responsibility about which I have little idea) You further probe by asking right set of questions and it will point you in directions to work : why I had a terrible relationship ( my partner cheated on me / we wanted different things and couldn't communicate them in a healthy way/my partner was toxic ). Next set of questions would be based on responses to previous one. ( My partner cheated on me - well, it's terrible to happen but did I miss red flags which could've indicated to this )
You can do a similar thing for your emotions too, so that you understand the pattern of their occurance. It's all part of the process of getting to know yourself. The ability to separate emotions comes from asking / seeking answers to right questions either consciously or subconsciously. 
PS : This isn't some gyaan post but rather a result of me thinking and trying to come up with a way I handle problems in my life, this may or may not be applicable to your life. I shared this coz I felt the need to present a view). 

I could love you with my eyes closed,
Kiss you with a blindfold,
Figure you out.

Figure you out, VOILÀ

Love

Doing this for the first time.... 

I married my boyfriend of seven years... Everyone warned me about him not being right for me... my parents, my friends, and my dear ones.... said things which are now turning out to be true and not even two complete years of our marriage. 

He is always bad-mouthing me, abusing me and when the temper is bad he has tried to hit me a few times too... I cannot get out of this marriage because I literally fought my parents and convinced them for this marriage. There is no escape for me. 
But my husband is not always the bad guy, there are times he treats me like a princess and then days he hurts my feelings ignores my pain, and is busy with himself. People would suggest we should communicate since we have been friends for so long, but honestly, I am scared of him now. I am scared to talk about how I feel with him.  I never know when something would upset him and he might lose his patience and starts to abuse me. He tells me because of you my life is ruined and don't talk to my friends anymore.

I, on the other hand, left my parents' house, shifted to a new city, left all my friends, my whole life to be with him. I don't have any support system. During a fight, I left the house and after walking out the doors I realized I have no place to go.

I have no one who would understand what I am going through. I cannot talk about my feelings to anyone. I just pray to God now to take my life so all the miseries come to an end because i cannot find any escape. 

Marriage

Tbh, I'm so grateful to have a bunch of really good friends who are there by my side. But it's me! I don't share my emotions with them.

why is it so hard for a girl to see what i am truly like im not a bad guy im just sensitive like i just want a girlfriend who truly gets how i feel and will comfort me no matter what im going through.

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts