Concept: a mermaid who collects human artifacts, but, like, exclusively objects that humans have dramatically cast into the sea in moments of high emotion, catharsis, or personal revelation. Each item is carefully mounted above a little index card that outlines the circumstances of its hurling in terse, clinical prose.


Happy

It would be best if I disappeared then I wouldn't disappoint so many people and most importantly I could just leave. And no one would know.

Today I feel Super Energetic...

Gender Equality

I feel great today but there is a strange guilt in being happy too. Like am doing some crime, am   In the limbo, separated from my husband, we are figuring stuff out but reality is am happy Cz am focusing and working on myself. 

I want to run away, just run away from my worries for at least some days

3am Thoughts

I just have no will to live anymore. I lost my faith in everything. Its killing me from the inside out. Its like there no purpose for our lives. What is like to be happy or to smile. Its been a long time. Why am i so sad that i just dont know i really dont know why i just cant smile anymore , i can no longer look to the people in the eyes, its scars me like am feeling so lonely even tho i have friends around me, it just feels so lonely. They be laughing all day long, and am just there wondering how can they be so happy, like how they can do it and i just cant. Why am i so fucking down like ihate myself so much, that i end up crying everyday in my bad like a babby. Why is it so hard for me to share my feelings? Maybe cz no would ever care, no one will really understands me. I can't concentrate in my classes which it leads for me to fail my classes. Why is it so hard for people to notice that am not really okay tho my answer to "how  are you " is always "fine". Why i can know when people aren't really good. Why i can notice it fast while everyone arround me cant. Why whenever someone is sad i just worry alot about thm and not giving myself any kind to attention. Why i care about people more thn i care about myself. I just don't know what to do anymore. Am really lost. Am just so sad that i totally forgot i last time i was happy.I had a bad childhood, i never had a friend for my first 15 years. I was bullied, i used to be a joke for everyone, and my parents didn't do anything about it. And i just don't blame thm for that cz they are unconscious. All they cared about was my grades. And cz of that am the person i am now. If everything was different for me would i be a different person now? If yes thn who i really am?
Am afraid to commit suicide , not cz there is a hell and heaven but cz there is nothing after death, i just want to find my happiness, i just want to find something i am really good at, i just want to live like everyone else, its killing me. I just cant live and i cant die. Its the worst feeling. I just want someone to be next to me, believe in me, to help me get threw all this, i just cant find anyone who would really care for me. I lost my faith.

Mental Health

I don’t know where to start or what to say.
It’s been going for really long time on and off. I don’t want to talk to anyone or be around anyone. I don’t want to do anything or achieve anything anymore. Whenever I’m around my parents I’m in my lowest. I have had traumas. I don’t know how to seek help. I want to get better for myself and my future. Let me know how to start. I feel tired most of the time. And I feel like if I’ll end myself I will be free and everyone else also will be free.

Depression

The only energy that's left in me is potential energy coz I'm standing on rooftop. That too will be zero if you take roof as reference.

Life

**Hello** **everyone** going through a lot, I don't know what's actually going on from past 20 years in my life. No, it's not only confusion but it's a pattern of sadness, trauma, deaths, restrictions, fakeness and much more. Yeah, I am alive and that's most difficult thing to do right now in my life i guess. I am even stressed to share my feelings freely as I really don't wanna stress the reader cause I know the reader is also a human being and no one wants to be sad right? I don't know what will I do going through so much and I am sooo muchh tired of all this !!! I don't wanna die, it would be really great if you can give one suggestion or just give some positive vibes. Really will mean a lot to me. Thanks for reading this far for me !! Love you !! God Bless you !! 

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