Coming to terms with how not everything is my fault, and how sometimes the other person's dismissal is due to their own shortcomings and not mine (hopefully) 

Mental Health

Kisi se doori banayi,
kisi ke paas rahe,

hazar koshishein karli
magar udaas rahe.

3am Thoughts

Praying the tahajud in this chilly winter is real struggle but gives the real joy 😊  .
Aisa lagta hai ki khuda k sath batein kar rahe ho namaz mai .


I wanna cry....
There is no reason for this....
I just wanna shout out so loud and I wanna cry as much I can....


Depressed 

Alcohol

What if your boyfriend doesn’t take u out on lunch or dinner but instead goes out with his friends everyday for lunch..and then makes an excuse saying ‘whenever I ask you for lunch u say no’ but doesn’t really ask! 

What do you expect on your bdays when you are 26 ? I mean the level of excitement or anything you wnat to share.

I don't know if anyone will judge me after reading this but there is a question in my mind also a guilt that i have to Confess. 
6 months ago I broke up my 4 years relationship. I started feeling alone as I am in the habit of always getting attention and pampering but now I miss all those lovely hugs and kisses. There is a guy who likes me also I have a bit crush on him but the thing is he is in a relationship. We went for drinks one day and I got high. I was in the washroom there he came to check me if I was fine ,  I taunted him badly that i am aware of all his intentions and I don't trust him and all the things but he was so soo nice to me he came inside rub my back wash my face clean it and ask me if I feel okay or not. He got some lemons gave me with his own hands though I insist to had it my self but he took atmost care of me by himself. When I started feeling better I don't know how but I attracted to him so much I hugged him. Then also he can't do anything to take advantage. We went for walk there he confess many things about his personal life and kissed me. I resist because I realize that I am doing equally bad to the girl who is with this guy as him. But I am still feeling guilty for the thing that I have done. When I told him to not cheat her girl he gave me the reason that he is in a long distance relationship and multiple times he had tried to let her the girl knew that they are not working. And I have seen their messages also I am really confused, guilty and feeling like stuck. 

Cheating

I am done with my parents
i am preparing for neet..
i try so hard..even i didn't understand anything in the online class..literally nithing and i don't have any coaching as my parents can't afford..
i worked so hard studied all night and days
they are always not satisfied with my marks..like hardly i lose 5-6 marks..i try so so hard but still i don't get good marks so they just scold me telling u don't study and you don't deserve this and you are wasting our money and all...i am a average scoring student, but they want me to score full marks everytimee..and when i get full marks my brother taunts me saying..huh it was online exams anyone could copy..
i feel so sad..even after giving so much hard work they are never satisfied..thy always compare me with toppers and always taunt me..
i am so done with them..
they make me cry everytime..they compare me with my cousins...but they don't realize that their parents never tortured them and always supported them..i just feel useless and sad.. 
i try so hard but never score good...i hate my life..my parents literally taunt me saying . you just waste our hard earned money..you are just a burden..if you score less marks next time we'll not pay ur fees..and then sit here and do house work and use mobile as you do now..
😭😭😭😭😭

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