Coding is fun until you can't solve that one problem from past 3 days 😐

In school.. And i have exam in two days.. I even cant wrote one correctly 

Ahh feel you....there is a server in discord ....markitup....you can write ur doubt there

and i have a final project soon, imma fail

Ayeoo no you gonna crack it..... trust me

idk i usually rely on google for coding, but i cant use it for this

omg im in a coding class rn it's so fucking hard tho

3am Thoughts

I have realised that I get emotionally attached to people very easily. Like if I regularly start spending time with any boy than I get attached to him. I have never had any male friend coz whenever i get close to a boy we become more than friends sometimes from my side sometimes from his n then things end somehow. I'm just tired of these emotions that always lead me to a dead end. I lose friendship n relationship both. It feels I'm stuck in this circle from so many years that the same thing happens every time. Its so frustrating n stressful. I don't know but now I feel having a gud heart in today's world is useless n stupid coz in the end that's how I end up feeling. 

Friends

I created a new YouTube channel today. Here is the link  

￼https://youtu.be/2rIFRTAMI98?si=iuhkGqhHe4GxI22O

Happy

5 minutes ago I was looking for the best platform to share my thoughts anonymously and here I am writing you this hopefully am at the rite place. Basically, am not the one who can share anything easily.  I barely can communicate my feelings to anyone but doesn't mean I dont have something in my head that bothering me. Hella lot!   Deep down inside I know am not in good condition even my body shows it so. I have missed my period for 6 months maybe because of depression. 😥my career and love life are  two things that  bothered me so badly. 

Depression

I'm not special in any single way and it's so tiring not having 1 thing you're good at. my looks are normal at best my height is normal I'm underweight but look normal enough. I have 0 hobbies I tried out EVERYTHING. I tried art, music, horse back riding, painting, writing, badminton, table tennis, volleyball, piano, singing, flute, sculpting, doodling, basketball, yoga, languages (everyone knows english so that doesn't even count), fashion, playing competitive games, dancing. I tried all these stuff and I'm good at none of them I'm not even normal in any of them I'm just downright bad. I have 0 talent 0 looks 0 social skills 0 academic performance. there's not 1 single thing I'm good at or enjoy doing. I'm truly a no one. I have nothing to define myself other than saying I'm quiet. I'm the least special person and I hate it. I could've at least had colored eyes. or long legs or something. I suck at everything and my looks are default. I'm gonna pass away alone because no one would want me. I hate cooking and doing chores and even tho I'm studying in university I know the reality that I won't be able to get a good job. I wouldn't want me either. I have nothing and I won't have anything. I just want something special. everyone is the main character of their life but I'm too normal and bad at everything I do to be leading my life. 

Other

I can’t stop cutting myself I’m really done with this life it isn’t for people like me I just wish I could disappear rightnow it would be better for everyone.

Self Harm

I'm starting to think she never really cared about me. She only cared about her needs. But I guess all women are self-centred like that. I should just move on and forget about her or dating again

Relationships

Mornings are best, nights are depressing.
 What are your thoughts? 

Time

Hi. I have been dating this guy for 7 years now. And I feel like he's really good for me. I dont really know what love is but I can't imagine a life without him. I have never really dated anyone else. I was his first gf and he was mine and its been like that ever since. My parents are forcing me now to get married. They are also looking for suitors. My man is of a lower caste and my parents are really orthodox. They have already given me hints regarding our relationship that they will never agree. But i really don't wanna marry anyone else. What should I do?

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