Children are such pure soul. Being around them makes you feel so fresh and lively.

Aww I agree. They are so honest and without a care in the world! 

They can Brighten up the mood with their silliness even when we are feeling really awful . They are just too adorable ??

Indeed. Spending time with children makes my heart happy. 

Relationships

If a kid is doing really good parents love him, he is their favorite kid. If a kid is not doing good parents hate him yes I said hate him. They keep degrading him all the time and even degrade him in his absence. Parents on the other hand expect their Children to love and respect them in every situation despite of the fact that they are doing good or bad in their lives and are providing their kids a good life or not. Lol such irony!! 

Parenting

Why the fuck i can't take my decisions
My parents are soooo toxic dude I wanna ram away from my homeee

 As we grew older and  does ur parents don't want to spend time with us or they just don't wanna talk to us about  our daily life   or they have many  people to company them . What are your thoughts on this ??

Adulting

I've always avoided thinking/admitting about things that hurt me because I'd think I'm being dramatic + there's people who has it way worse. I hope it's alright I express my own problems though.

I'm in an asian household, it's the typical get good grades and future pep talks. I make an effort to always think positive and say that I can make it, trying to avoid the fear. But this message isn't about my education, it's my parents.

I love them. Hope that I'd make them proud. I can't say we have a bad relationship. It's good, it's normal and average. But they don't know that their words really hurt sometimes, especially when you're making an effort but they claim the opposite and don't appreciate them at all. They'd view you as a disobedient,rude child who doesn't know what to do with their life. 

I love them and think they're right since they're the parent. Mostly they are right but sometimes I think twice. I avoid thinking they're wrong when sometimes they are wrong because I think it's right for me to back down. It's driving me crazy. Torn between being a good daughter that doesn't think of her parents badly even just a little bit and a daughter who doesn't want to get hurt by her parent's words when they call her a failure, rude kid who can't be like other successful children. 

Sometimes I don't even know what I'm exactly doing or for what reason I'm doing something anymore.

But then again, I might be  being over dramatic, but even if I am, it's okay to talk about it since its kinda been hurting my heart for some years now, right..? 

Family

Idk why tf parents are soo judgemental

My parents is making me feel hurt. One day i accidentally tripped, and what my parents did is yelling at me and even hit me. They said they yelled at me because they care and because they are shocked. But do they care about how i felt?

Depression

I hate sardi(Runny nose). I hate it. 

Frustration

How can parents not love their child just for not being academically excellent ? Having to beg to be loved is so hard especially when it's your own parents. Is it too much to ask for ?I literally can't get closer to anyone or love anyone who isn't family . I don't have friends, I don't have siblings, I don't have a lover and I just love my family unconditionally. I have even told my dad how I feel because I literally don't even have anyone else to tell all this . Since they know how I feel and how they've made me feel. I am literally proud of myself and I will never be ashamed of myself. All I want is unconditional love if it's not unconditional then it's just that your drawn to something you admire.I've been marked for my academic achievements haha I am treated like trash because I don't score how he wants me to and I don't get anything without my academic scores being assessed.I've literally been raised alone and have no siblings or friends it makes it so hqrd for me to bond with people.. my parents didn't ever encourage me to have friends(I'm an extrovert and I have friends but none with whom I share a bond and can't love them to the fullest because I've never had a bestfriend for more than 6 months) and say they were just enough for me. But had many friends and people to share their happiness and sorrows with while I'm all alone. I am just so scared that nobody will ever love me unless they see what they want in me. And yes it's been an absolute dictatorship here. I've been deprived of choices yeah I don't mind living for others yeah If it makes me happy I'd do it but it never did. I've never had a choice be it a color or what I study . Everything I have is what he likes and my likes and dislikes never mattered my choice is indecent even before he knows what it is. Spending time together is a miracle. Being available always is impossible .I just get jealous when I see other fathers expressing love for their sons and daughters. I wonder if I am the worst son. After all I may not be an achiever according to him but I own every failure of I'm because I've learnt from it and succeeded . Just pointing out my flaws and talking about me being financially dependent on  him (neither was he at my age) oh yeah every fight starts from thetopic of money haha literally the least spent on me. I'd rather prefer to grow in a an orphanage with the just thatsame spent on me atleast be loved by someone.who boasts about providing basic necessities for their own family?All this is extremely toxic especially when he says I cannot ever be equal to him or achieve anything in life like him(narcissistic) tbh idc I feel I'm far better than him right now and don't want to be him . I have an amazing mother who loves me a lot but just fails to understand me well.I'm tired of feeling that I am just not good enough . Ik communication and understanding can solve these problems but I just hope it's two side because only then things will get sorted  or maybe I should move to a hostel so that the time and the space helps them realize. I have no happy memories maybe I do but are blocked by the negatives .I know that the three of us love each other a lot but don't understand each other well. I hope that changes. l have never been hurt by the insults because I own every flaw of mine because that's what made me stronger and I'm proud because I am honest with myself. Sometimes I think that the fear of someone else hurting your loved one makes you hurt them the most which is absolutely toxic. 

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