"Change is mandatory for extraordinary results."

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Good morning let u encounter a great change today 

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Intro

Who is there ?

3am Thoughts

so i smoke and over discord there was this server with like most ppl from our school there and ppl kept sayin sum "stop smoking"... no... but then i got banned from the server bc i broke up with the guy who owned it (we got back together😋 hes my 4lifer🤞😋) but there was this one guy named nick(not his name) and he would dm me with paragraphs on how i shouldnt smoke. its sweet and all but dude be quiet... but uhmm we was all online last year but now we in person and i never knew what he looked like, only his voice bc we used to call. so im at school one day and this stranger comes up to me like "are you panda?" (my discord name) and ofc i said yea. tell me why this stranger said "stop smoking." WHEN I TELL YALL MY HEAD TURNED. i said sum "NICK??" bc we was fr best friends... and then we hugged and stuff. it was so cute. we had lunch and 2nd hr together and when i tell you that teacher has never hated two students as much as they hate us... we got separated like 4 times but we still found a way back to each other... in between classes we walk around school together with my bf and we just act goofy asf. school is so fun now like it fr wasnt like this b4 covid😭 but its the weekend so me, my bf, and his friends finna ride they bike to my house then we all goin downtown💀 we might go to the gas station and try to buy a breeze. i look mad old so ima have to buy it... but we finna be trippin up in these stores istg.

Friends

I hate not being able to do the sports that I enjoy because of an injury but I know I have to wait until I've heald, but not being able to do them is starting to put a strain on my mental health because they are how I usually get out the negative feelings and they really do bring joy to my life but right now I don't have that and I'm not okay 

She doesn't care about me, not even 1% then why can I not get her out of my thoughts. Why do I remember every single detail she has ever told me? Why do I remember every conversation we've had?

I just dont know … what i did wrong .. i loved him so hard that i was even ready to sacrifice all my loved ones for him and have a happy life with him.He just couldn’t understand that how my parents are strict and conservative. 
His family wanted him to get married but i was stuck with my parents situation.I knew that they want me to focus on my career and if i tell them about my relationship it would have turned disastrous for both of us. I just wanted him to give me some time and let let me achieve something career wise.Then i would be ready to talk to my parents as they would have been more acceptable towards this relationship. I tried my best to make him understand that i love him and i will marry him and i am not in doubt. I just needed time to take the right step when the time is right,even it needed to sacrifice few of my loved ones. I just wanted him to keep our relationship secret from all the parents for a while (although all the siblings and cousins knew about us). 
But he left me saying “i dont love you anymore,and i dont care about your efforts that u are putting to keep me and save this relationship”. 
After 6 months we are back to talking again and i still love him but he broke my siblings and cousins trust and and things are more difficult now.Even i try there will be more resistance and now he is bad character in all of their eyes.
What should i do ? 
Was i wrong ? Is this  the guilt i have to live with forever my life ??
P.s he is still not married . 

I want to cry out so loud and clear out all the pain that’s weighing me down I don’t even know how to get away from the problem I’m facing i just want to run away from everyone at this point  but I can’t and I can’t tell my family the situation I’m facing everything stressing me out I don’t know what to do .



Stress

Arghh I'm having leg pain from yesterday morning applied everything I can but it's paining more now.. Nor did I fall or got hitten anywhere.. Give me tips please

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