Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I m introvert I don’t have friends idk how to make friends

I don’t want to forget him… I love him still how to gain his trust again cox I cheated on him…

Well we can connect if you don’t mind

See for that you have to talk to him confess what had happened totally to him and ensure that you wouldn’t do anything like this ever in life and reassure him then let him decide what he wants to do.

I explained him many times… but he don’t want to trust me again…

Then I guess you should not push more on him or else he wouldn’t just snap very much on you instead of talking to you.

Well then don’t extend it much for now as if you do it more then he wouldn’t not talk to you just give him some time then do something

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I didn’t cheated him…
I had only male friend who told him wrong things about us in call which he believed… coz I m introvert I don’t have much friends specially female friends I don’t have so I had male friend

Usne aur gndi chize boli thi jo mera bf bhula nii pa rha

Coz my friend was dominating he snatched my phone and asked password and took pictures of number of my bf then called him

Nii to wo meri phone Tod deta nii password deri to

I m changing my perception now coz ldko ne mere sath bahut bura kr dala abtk coz they r dominating and they r more physicaly stronger so sometimes when they r in anger it’s hard for me to stop them… and boys can do anything which is not predictable… in anger… so I have made decision now I will make female friends more… and make male friends only who r very soft in nature and not agressive

I had guy friends coz of loneliness as I m introvert I don’t go college and I don’t have any female friends

Right…

Here my offline friend who had feelings for me… I used to talk with him as friend but didn’t informed about my ldr bf coz I want to keep my relationship private so when he snatched my phone he found my ldr bf number saved as husband he called him and told that she is double dating u and me which was somewhere right but I always treated my friend like friend and ldr bf like my husband fir bhi usne chhod diya sb jaane k bad

I met male friend online

I feel female friends is not helping in nature… girls don’t help other girls jbtk axi friend na bne aur mere sath female friends tikti nhi

Aajtk mene online kbhi sahi ldki nhi dekhi… hoti hongi sahi ldkiya but ldkiya hr kisi se bat nii krti wo bhi unknown to kese kru ldkiyo se dosti

Yes meri company ldkiyo se nii jamti h they r not open nature and helping bhi nii hoti jitte bhi mene dekha h aajtk online offline dono hi me

I m open nature tbhi m kisi se bhi bat kr leti bina dare ldkiya k jese nii… wese ldkiya sahi krti h unknown se bat Krna bhi nii chahiye coz bahut bar bura bhi hota h jese mere sath bhi hua h but my bf was my best decision to talk with unknown person

Kinks pick me behaviour unka ya Mera ?

M chahti nhi log mujhe notice bhi kre I m antisocial aur tum pick me behaviour ki bat kr rhe 😂 ho skta h online m logo se kuc bhi boldu but as I m introvert offline m relatives se bat bhi nii krti

Ok…

Tin mahine bit gye mene bahut smjhaya but wo bolta h ki ab mujhe relationship me nii aana kisi k sath bhi… idk ki ushe udhr gf mil gyi h ya wo rhna hi nii chahta relationship me kisi k sath bhi ya mere sath rhna nii chahta… he said the problem is I haven’t trust on u and also don’t want to make trust again

Sb krke dekh liya mene ab bs yhi ki time bad ky pta uska mind change ho

I can’t type same things many times coz it’s tiring me… read my all comments I have done and understand my whole story in short I love my ldr bf more than me and he left me and he made decision to not make me gf again

I just want some good suggestions anyone can give me here… I know there is no hope of getting him back in my life but ky pta mujhe kux asi trick mile ki m uska trust fir gain kr pau… I had imagined all my life with him… imagined about kids without meeting him also in real… I feel how I can move on and just let go of the things. I have dreamt for 1 year to meet him and all the couple goals I had in my mind to complete with him when we meet after 1 year but wo meeting kbhi hua hi nhi break up k wajah se I was shattered my wait of 1 year and wish to see him in real my. All dreams broken… it’s hard for me to replace him after taking time also I can’t think I will move on from him coz wait of 1 year in serious ldr relationship without meeting need too much seriousNess and consistency I gave all efforts but I didn’t get anything coz of my one mistake 😭 I can’t replace him with any boy in my life coz the dream of future I had with him I don’t want to redream with another one and let me left me again in same condition and I also don’t want any boy except him… I feel he is my soulmate coz his energy his aura attracted me every second of our relationship… I was too much in him … how can I just let him go and move on😭

Jaha tak mai smjh pa raha hu ki teesre bande ne ap dono ke beech mai akar ladayi lagwa diya aur apka koi bestie tha jo usse phone krke bad words kaha apke bf ko lekin apke bestie ne aisa kiya kyu aur aap ne usse kuch nahi kaha uska maksad tha ap dono ka rishta torwane ka jo usne kr diya

Girl bestie nhi tha boy tha jisne meri jindagi kharab ki just coz he loved me and I used him for my loneliness as best friend… sometimes I told him as bf but I always wanted to hide both of them from each other but aakhir me sb chize pta chla gyi usko… basically I was serious with himvand was doing timepass with many other boys coz I wanted my life stress free but timepass bf bnana meri liye bhari pad jayega mene kbhi nii socha tha… but it’s true we can be in relationship like one is serious and true love and others are only for timepass and no feelings attached to them

I was doing timepass with other boy and my ldr bf was serious and true love for me… I wanted to hide these things that I have timepass bf to my ldr bf whom I really love but things didn’t gine on my way and my truth came out… but in reality I have deep fees for him only… he only seeing me as cheater but he can’t understand that I used other boys just for my loneliness coz he was busy that time and I have no girl friends so I had timepass male bf…

I was not characterless… I was just immature… That’s why I did that mistake