Brother.

It’s been a while since she left your life. 

You’ve moved on, but you still get flashbacks of her. 

Piece of advice?

Don’t try to fight it. 

There’s nothing wrong with reminiscing the beautiful moments you shared.

Forget the bad. Hold onto the good. 

When it’s all said and done, be grateful that you met her.

It’s not tragic that she left.

It would’ve been tragic had she never arrived in your life.

That’s just how women are in a man’s quest towards greatness. 

Sources of beauty, peace, and inspiration… 

Before the endless WAR towards mediocrity and settling begins again.

Bruce you are a tougher rocket my man. The greatness is waiting for you. Go way more ahead where this pain becomes a fuel for your endeavours. 🔥

Thanks a lot man!! We'll grind hard, and slay the day...

I got ur point bro, and now I'm way ahead of it, still it hurts so much, I was in 7 months depression due to it , ughh , she meant a lot to me.

3am Thoughts

Let's consider two person 
A & B so A is the one whom I love alot from past 5+ years but she doesn't care she humiliated me alot , abused me, etc but still I m unable to move on from her so B is our mutual friend ( I & A girl) B helps me alot, she told me to move on frm her (A girl) , she made me understand about everything, she helped me in studies, she always has been there for me to help me no matter it's study related things or about the problems with my own life she always motivated me but few days before B girl asked me to go out with her it's like a hangout but I denied but that was the first time she asked me and after I denied she started ignoring me she thinks tht I m only with her because she's the friend of Girl A and yess whenever I wanted to talk with girl A then girl B helps me alot, she convinced her to talk with me from that day she (girlA) started talking with me like girl A is a personality with attitude and she actually says that "you're not of my standard" on the other side girl B is a personality like she helps everyone but now I think maybe that day she needed me as she's not much expressive...and can clearly see that even she's not talking with me but she actually cares alot 
She indirectly helped me alot and I m the only guy friend of her...
And I am also not trying to talk with her regarding this am I being selfish with her? Am I wrong? 
She never asked me to go out with her but it was the first time... Did she really need someone at that day? 
What should I do? 

Friends

I was with a girl and randomly she said I need a break. I thought she was kindding and said ok. Then we didn't talk for couple of days, days turned into months and still not talking. But I miss her, actually a lot. Asked her what happened said I dont wann hurt you. Right now she just sees my mesgs not even a reply😔. Dont know what to do

I am finding it so hard to get a girlfriend lol 💔

Relationships

Hi, I need some advice I went through a breakup about a month ago and now realize that giving her up was the biggest mistake of my life and has lead to some pretty sad days.

If you have any advice on how to deal better please tell me. Thanks

Breakup

In April I broke up with my girlfriend because I was too scared to admit that I'm having suicidal thoughts. Because I promised her at the begging of our relationship that I will not kill myself, I decided that when I broke up with I would be free to end my life. She was the only reason why I was fighting with my demons. Unfortunately I survived my sucide attempt and I started feeling even worse because I knew that I fucked up and that I hurted her because I was a fucking egoist. 

After a few weeks I finally talked about this with my best friend. I asked her if she knows how my ex is doing. I asked her if they are in touch because I was worried about her. She LIED to me and told me that they don't really text. Maybe one text per week. Well. I believed her. She was always telling me that she all her friendships trough internet weren't really working because she's not that type to text a lot. Well, I believed her. Event tho I was hurt because she was texting me only when she wanted to meet up with me. 

After a few weeks I found out the truth. They're were texting almost 24/7 and my ex was planning on visiting her for few days. 

I was so angry that I texted my friend and told her how I'm feeling about this. She was again lying to me.  She was trying to make me feel bad because I was feeling betrayed. I told her that this is the end of our friendship. She wasn't even trying. 

At that time I felt like everything is falling apart. I lost my two most important people in life. 

At the end of June I texted my ex to explain everything (I wanted to write a letter for her on the day where we started dating). But I found out that she was visiting my ex bff that day. So I texted her with this letter. I told her the truth. I did this because I wanted to kill myself. She said that she understands, that she wants to help me. She told me that she loves me and she want to try again. 

After that we stopped texting. But on a group chat where I was, my ex, my ex bff and a few other people the two of them were 24/7 trying to make me feel even worse. I was crying every day and every night because I was so tired of this. 

A few days ago my ex bff visited my ex gf. They were posting photos together. Then I found out that they're together. 

Since that day I started overeating, crying most of my time and not being able to do anything. Last Saturday I tried to kms again. It's Wednesday and I'm slowly losing myself. I just can't. I just want this pain to stop. I'm alone. I don't have anyone. I'm so scared. I want to end my life but I'm so fucking scared . 

Suicidal Ideation

So about 3 months ago I proposed my crush who was my good friend but she denied by saying that I am wondering person but she doesn't feel the same and but I all always get a vibe she feels something for me but anyway I respect her descion so I am not saying to her about this but I am feeling so hurted every single day because I really love her and I am still not over her I can't stop thinking about her like we were together how will react and all this when I watch something realted to couple mean any happy moments I think of her and then realized we can be together which always made me cry I am crying almost every night from 3 months and I know I am running my life because it's okay 2 months left to college to get over and I haven't figured anything for me but this feeling hurt so good and moreover she agreed that she will not ruin our friendship but lately I am getting a feeling now she is ignoring me I messaged her after a month and we are having some nice conversation but on middle of the conversation she is ghosted me and I know people will say get over her there more girl in this world , focus on yourself but I already heard alot of this from people 🥲🥲 and this is the only girl I have ever liked in my 21 year of life  she was  genuinely the first girl I ever liked i sometimes feel I am worthless and though she is a Very nice girl she deserves the best maybe I was not the best maybe I am worthless


Lonely

Posted this last night and felt to post again!!

Do you ever feel that there is a disconnect who you were and what you are now?
I was always a funny(chandler) kind person who was very much fun to be around, not an extrovert person but just the right amount of that. I was living my life and having fun with great people-great mindset. Then the first serious relationship came, all with its ups and downs. As usual a person like me swear that whatever happens I’ll never leave this person no matter what. A surprise fact for many she was older than me, I loved and sacrificed(as I like to remember) whatever I could do for her. Moved into a new life and started thinking that this may be it…But who knew life doesn’t always work out as you plan. So after all the years being together, she broke off saying that there was nothing between us(I’ve more than thousands of hours of memories which begs to differ than this notion). Time passed and so did the pain, but damn you God!! You see a picture and you remember her plans “I’m looking for someone new to settle with maybe the ex before you who never left”. She is looking good and despite all your wisdom you feel how little can you matter in someone’s life. Didn’t you mean something…after all you lived together for so long.

Basically it boils down to one thing,“How can you be so naive to not know the person”. You had the whole world in front of you and you were this stupid to be with someone who in end pointed out how wrong you were for her.

But despite all this I remember one thing I always knew from before…Hate is really powerful. Don’t think that love is your salvation…nooooo… Channelize that hate, let it discipline you, let it tell you how foolish you were and your crying and emotions doesn’t matter at all. The only thing that matters is that hate and how can it fuel you towards something great!!

How do you overcome!

That night, when her text pop up it was late but seeing it i got chills... Like something was on my neck crawling around. I should not be this excited.
Her: hey!
Her: you there?
Her: are you asleep  ?
Her: i guess so...

I read them from notification bar... I'm not ignoring but it’s just i want to talk and at the same moment don't want to talk. Yes i know I'm confused.

All those thoughts are like rollercoaster they are coming back and forth between me and her .

Everything was on hault, i wasn't prepared for let her go cause she was everything I called peace.

I know Those eyes won't make me comfortable now her smile wouldn't make me happy as then. But afterall I wanna try i can't imagine working out of thing without her. She knows how important she is for me. Is making fun out of me ? Or she want just pull legs and letting me go ? What if I'm not as important as she is for me ? What if I don’t hold the same place as she do in my heart?...
I know this all makes no sense and all this was like another shit about taking things as it appears. _overthinking_ i guess and I know it is a Problem with me still I can't let her go I can't lose “US”

She was an addiction. And when I am with her there was no escape , but it's not dark just looming shadows as far as I could see , I just don't want to admit that she's taken over my life..

People changes. Feeling changes.
It simply means that sometimes when people grow , they grow apart.
But it doesn't mean that the love once shared wasn't true and real
you flinch everytime i try to reason over how i was in love with you, nearly as if you have never heard of a lie, almost blasphemous in its nature, as big as this one before.

you laugh at my face with tears right at the corner of your eye, trying gloriously hard to command some control over it and keep yourself from breaking down in front of me, failing miserably at an attempt to hide it all away.

it hurts me to see you holding pain in your heart, so much of it that the only way for it to come out of you is in forms almost physical and yet, all i want you to believe is in the fact that love once shared stays love forever, even when the people no longer belong to each other.

i want to whisper silent prayers and take the pain away, and fill you with the assurity of how love never ends and stays true to its existence once its born, and holding on to that, hurts way less than holding on to something which no longer exists.

you flinch everytime i try and tell you how a part of me would always love you with all it's entirety, everytime i wish there comes a point where we look at each other and remember the magnificent love that we nurtured together.

i wish i could tell you how people fall in love and sometimes fall apart, and yet the love once shared, is always going to be love, as eternal as it is.

but most of all, i wish i could somehow make you love that part of me, and not hate the whole of me.

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