Why are you the issue ?
Share your problem w that person. Tell them you’re struggling w this. They will definitely understand. Don’t let go of the person you love cause there are chances you might never get that again.
Yes, I get it. There is a lack of awareness. But do tell them about this, if you don’t feel safe tell them in a vague way. Who knows, they might surprise you. Good luck for your mental health. Work towards improving it. Ik you will come out of all this. Don’t disappoint me.