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Adib

3am Thoughts

Nobody gives a damn about me. I am always there for people whenever they need me. And when  they are done with me ,they leave. Im so tired of all this. It makes me sick. 

Depression

I can literally date someone if they know my starbucks order 😅❤️

Relationships

Is it  just me or anyone else also feel less of anxiety after a cup of coffee and great sun set?

Anxiety

I hate my baby dad so much. He’s is disrespectful and inconsiderate. He is the true definition of a narcissist. It’s always “woe is me”. Honestly I’m just over it and sick of it. Why does he always get to put me in a bad mood and than claim that I’m just overreacting or to emotional. I will admit I do have a few trauma related mental health problems. But I was on meds and went to counseling for 7+ years as a child and teen. Even as an adult. So I know it’s not me. And he can never take responsibility. And when I try to talk to him he doesn’t listen or constantly tells me he doesn’t wanna hear it and so on. But expects my undivided attention. Should I mention he’s talking to other women as well. We have one kids together (6) and he has one from previous (11 almost 12). I do everything for this man and our family. I suppose as I should. And of course I have my flaws but at least I own them. But he doesn’t. I asked if he was okay while he was on the Xbox with our nephew and my brother because he was breathing heavy. And totally gave me an attitude and was rude asf. Than was like oh “goodnight go to sleep”. Than asks if I’m mad just to tell me that I can basically wake the kids up and we can go upstairs because he does this all the time. But I forgot to mention that I pay aaaallllllll the bills. Since we first got together even when we split up for 11 months. He get money here and there and works on and off but I do it all. For everyone. We’ve been together since I was 17 and he was 20. And again I know I did wrong but I’ve always owned up and was honest. Not him when he gets caught he tries to deflect the conversation onto me and accuses me like I did something wrong. We’ve been together for like 6 years and he’s had made changes but extremely minimal, how he wants, and on his time but I changed for him. Of course on his time. It’s to the point where I don’t want to say I “love you too” anymore. He’s heartless but only to me. He’s loud and obnoxious. Than when he’s done being an a**whole he treats me like a child than tries hugging or kissing me like it’s gonna make it okay. Or he’ll pretend like it didn’t happen or he didn’t remember or just get pissed because I won’t fall for it than proceeds to blame me for his actions or say that I’m overreacting or childish, ignorant, etc. I can go on forever but I won’t. I appreciate your open ears. 

hey guys anyone wanna connect?

Acne

What's your favorite dialogue of F.R.I.E.N.D.S.?

mine is: "How you doing"😜


why to always be serious about life when you can watch friends...right?



How are you feeling? 

What if i never forget you?
What if all my life, when i meet someone new , i can never fall for them because they aren't you ....💔

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