Between two people , the person who loves more always gets hurt. 

                                - (Copied) 

Crush

Feeling so insecure. Just found out that during our brief break up, my boyfriend was in a “relationship” with a girl who was flirting with him while we were together and then literally waited for us to break up so she could manipulate him into liking her. For a while he resented me and couldn’t stop comparing me to her and even said that he saw a future with her instead of me. We’re back together now, but I don’t know if I can ever trust him again. 

Anxiety

I made a remix of a song last year out of boredom in lockdown at literally 3 AM as I as going through a heartbreak and as music is my only escape I made it
I loved it so I posted it on yt
That shit went crazy viral last month, it literally took tik tok by storm , though it gained attention very late, a very famous used on tt used it
Made me popular on yt too
Now I am getting offers for works as a DJ and in New Yorkkkk 
AHHH, IM SCREAMMIINNGG

Music

Body Positivity

It is 10:42 and thoughts are flowing trough my head. Sometimes I feel like I have no friends and the ones I do have aren’t really there for me; I wonder if actually need any friends or if I just need myself.

Don’t know how I feel. 

3am Thoughts

i thought i was doing better but, today i hurt myself, after 2 years of being clean i just broke again. I feel upset, angry, lost, sad. I cant reach out to my parents because they don't understand how hard im trying. I wish my mom would at least try to understand but she just makes me feel worse lol. 

My birthday is coming up in few days and i am turning 22 this year, only a month left for my graduation final exams after the exams i have to prepare and give entrance exam for further studies also do some preparation for my sister wedding, mother's health is no so good, Some construction work of home is also going with all these things on going I feel more helpless, pathetic, useless. Still haven't overcome somethings which had happened ....just don't know what to do where go 

Lynarra is scared of me now. ￼

Coming Out

I feel so stupid. Really. I just wish I had some amount of intelligence as my friends and then I wouldn't dare have a negative perspective about myself. All I ever wanted, was to be successful, but ever since I had an existential crisis, it sucks to be like this. Pathetic, miserable, directionless, hopeless. I got my test results back today, and I scored lower than I did previously despite studying well for it. I have another test tomorrow and I don't think I can do well in that either. 
I'm sorry, I just lost all the identity and confidence I had

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