Being alone .. depressed ... stressed.... and acting like active.. happy... infront of everyone... is the worst situation in the life...

Anxiety

Is there any one from Animation field ?

College

"Pack yourself a toothbrush dear ...
Pack yourself your favourite blouse...
Take a withdrawal slip ...
Take all of your savings out ...
Cause if we don't leave this town ...
We might never make it out ...
I was not born to drown...
So baby come on ..."

3am Thoughts

Messi or Ronaldo 

I don’t want to feel left out by my mom because of my elder sister.. Is that too much to ask?!

Family

There is a guy whom I never met in person. We met on social media. I think I have  feelings for him but I can sense he is toxic. He does nothing to me. He never texts first, never text back , the replies takes weeks, he never cares, never gives attention. And most importantly if he wants something he replies fast. He wanted to do sexting with me once so he was replying out fast but as soon as I denied he was gone. I know this is bad. Really bad. But whatever hate I have for him, whatever hurt he does, even if he texts me after ages, I run and reply to him forgetting all these hoping some day he will understand me. But I think that day will never come. I need to stop. I stopped texting him and now it's been weeks since we talked. I think I am better. Before I used to cry even if he doesn't reply for days. But now I don't cry. But sometimes I feel bad and sad. How to overcome this completely? 

Mental Wellbeing

Purple hat, cheetah print
Dancing on the people, rolled up at the after joint
Dancing dancing on the people
People dancing on the people, I got people on the people
People dancing on the people
With the people on the people

Smoke and CO2
See me see you, dancing on the people
Climb up on the booth, hanging from the people
On the people
My head hits the roof, dancing on the ceiling on the people
I got people on the people
Dancing dancing on the people

I've got purple hat, cheetah print
Dancing on the people
Rolled up at the after joint
Dancing dancing on the people
People dancing on the people
I got people on the people



Happy

I don't know what's even happening in my life I'm tired I'm irritated my pre boards are going on I can't concentrate i have to study for boards also me and my boyfriend are in long distance we talk for only 40 mins a week as he's in hostel and only get's his phone on Sunday i have no one to talk to i mean i can talk to my friends but i want him he used to ask me every single detail of my day he genuinely made me feel loved after all the family trauma I've seen from past 15 years. Last 4-5 years were the most difficult time on sep 19 2019 my grandfather passed away and on sep 7 2020 my father passed away he wasn't a nice person my grandmother also not a nice person she speaks bullshit about my mother i really don't feel like i have a family everyone hates eachother and atlast me and my sister suffers the most. And now my family is dependent on me and my sis everyone says " you 2 only have to do everything support your mother and grandmother" I'm genuinely tired of these free advices i mean i know i have to support and i will but it's just too much of pressure. I really can't see my mother in pain every decision in her life was against her marriage, work and EVERYTHING!!! People say childhood is the best phase of life i mean not in my case they say "what have you seen in your life😂" I'm like bro that's the problem I haven't seen anything I want my childhood everyone is creating memories and i have none from my past years of life i have my father coming home drunk at 12 am and beating my mother and grandparents this is my childhood memory no one gives a fuck about the things I'm suffering from i genuinely don't want to live it's just too much my mother and grandmother flights too much too much of trauma and really because of this trauma no one can see me and my sister's life destroying

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