Before it’s 12am, I feel like I wish I have leukemia and die in a month so that I have time to do stuff I have always wanted to do. I feel nostalgia these days, guess my old life was better. I feel dead. I feel like I’m dissolving on my bed as I am typing in this place.
this… is a crazy idea. It’s bad. It’s bullshit. But it could be brilliant. Also, I’m sorry if this is in anyway offensive I’m really bad at telling that stuff.
Take what money you have and live like you only have a month. Don’t do anything stupid, but let go and have the freedom of doing whatever you want. Just let go. Spend the night in a fancy hotel. Watch the sunrise at a lookout. Swim in a waterfall. Eat in fun places you’ve never tried. Take a friend with you, or just a journal and write a page each day, like your diary is your best friend. Dance in the rain and lay under the moon.
What did you do in the old days?
If there is anything I can do to help, let me know. Good luck <3
Thank you, it is not offensive at all. I wish it is that easy, but as an underage person, there is nothing I can really do about it really. Not much of freedom is given until I turn 18. I do not have a job to make money and I can’t get a job because I am currently living abroad. My parents won’t let me work part-time anyway. Fancy hotel, sunrises, swimming sounds nice although I can’t swim, and to be with friends are nice, sadly, they only exist in an imaginary world. In the old days, hmm…I was not allowed to go out and hang with my friends, I only had two friends, who are busy with their lives. I usually stay at home and read novels and imagine. I isolate and still do, from my family by telling them I am studying. There is nothing we all can do. Wake up the next morning and nothing change because unfortunately, we are living in a reality world, where we all should get a grip and get real. Although I do hope that maybe the next time I close my eyes, I will be transferred into a world of my favorite novel and live a happily ever after. Of course, my self conscious would just snap and tell me to get real.
You’re a dreamer. That’s great, I’m a dreamer too! And it’s a good thing. We wouldn’t have electricity without dreamers. I get how hard it is, I’m only 17 and have to wait until I finish school to have a job, my family has no money and it gets really hard. I used to read Land Of Stories series and hope like Alex that I’d fall in. And I was able to survive by dreaming of a better world.
I don’t know much I can do to help except these 3 things; 1) I’ll be your friend :D 2) try playing online games like Roblox (I like Royale High) to live in a fantasy world and 3) plan. Plan what you’ll do, where you’ll go. Make a list and prepare for it. Or even just change your attitude for a day. Eat your dinner outside. Watch the stars, have a bubble bath with a playlist and pretend to be a celebrity! Life is too short not to live it. If there is anything more I can do to help let me know ;)
Thank you. I used to play Royal High too but I quit, will try to go back. My family is currently in a situation where money is limited as well. Sometimes I wish I was born wealthy, with a lot of resources. My dream is to get into an Ivy League college so that I can repay my parents hard work for sending me to the US for education.
I totally know the feeling. Dancing is my dream, but my family has never had the money for more than a few dance classes a year, and no space at home to rehearse. I wish that we had more money. But I do what I can to help them, and since I’m not allowed a job I’ve been looking into writer’s competitions and selling my old clothes, maybe upcycling some things I’ve found on the street. Maybe that can work for you? :) I hope you get into and Ivy League school hopefully on a scholarship if money is tight!!
Thank you, I hope you get to have a giant room with huge mirrors so that you can look at yourself while you dance. I can’t dance 😂, it’s so funny sometimes when I tried dancing in front of my mirror. I looked like a monkey with a broken waist 🤦♀️😂
HAhaa that is the best way of saying you can’t dance! That’s fine though, just find what make you free and happy you know? Thank you so much that’s super sweet!! :)
Hey, do not think that way. Trust me, that is not the right way to motivate yourself. I understand the nostalgia but remind yourself that you can have an even better future. Sometimes yes, we have ups and downs and if you are going through a phase like that learn to embrace it my dear friend. Things will get better, write down your dreams and try to use positive affirmations to achieve them!
Thank you. I will try. Good days, I just wish they are longer than any other usual days.
