Before, I felt more. I felt love. I felt motivation. Now I feel Nothing. I don't get hurt when I am supposed to. Nothing seems to motivation me as it should. Idk what is happening to me.😶

As I am a student right now, its not possible for me to go on a vacation. But as soon as my school gets over I am planning for a trip. Thanks for your advice!!😊

Thank you so much for your suggestion. I will definitely try!

Its alright to feel nothing, I would suggest you go on a trip and discover yourself(If thats possible for you). It will bring you a bit of peace and make you feel calm as well.

Honestly, I've been feeling the same.. I wait for weekends all week thinking that I'd be productive/ do something that I enjoy but when the weekend hits all I do is sleep or lie on bed all day and waste time 😣 I'm badly in need of some motivation but all one do is find it within yourself just get up workout for a while, clean your room or listen to music.. these are the few things that calm me down

Life

Today I feel so suffocated. I feel like not doing anything. I'm sad if I don't do anything I will be left behind but I don't have any motivation to do anything .I'm also bit confused where I belong .i kinda think I lonely 

Hi guys...I need help.
I used to so enthusiastic, gregarious person, used to make people laugh, an overwhelming person indeed. After the first COVID lockdown was over we had our college reopened. I felt nothing. I become sooo numb. Couldn't able to build friendship. I was afraid of everything and I started overthinking. That was totally worse. It literally ate my brain. Then after I fell in love with a guy who turned to be a playboy. This made me fell  to severe depression for straight 3 months. But I never lost the hope to being a normal person again. But surviving with this is so tough.whemever I'm alone the devil inside my head awakes. So started to build friendship with few. But its making it worse was i get after of bei g abonded.Can u give me any suggestion or advise on how to heal 

Anxiety

I am like very very lost.
I live in a wrecked country every day is getting worse than yesterday i have no hope for future. 
Every now and then i get my hopes up start trying hard to reach my goals but then i hit the same wall it's just hopeless
I am 23 years old and i have made some mistakes till today that i can't take back but i know this that if i work hard enough i will succeed but who am i kidding seriously i think I'm not smart enough and all this aside i don't have friends I'm mostly alone i don't like to go outside even before covid 19 and i think I'm spoiled child or sth 😂 but still hurts that i can't talk to 1 or 2 people that i call friend about my miserable mind because i can feel it that they say look at this guy he has a perfect life and he is nagging you know what i seriously don't want this to happen but what should i do i don't know and no one helps. 

So I guess I have this major self destructive streak in me. I don't know when it began but a lot of the credit has to go to my parents and how I was raised. My family runs away from happiness and comfort. To them, feeling happy for more than 5 minutes is luxurious and suspicious because their lives have been so happening and hectic. I have been used to the negative situations so much that when I don't have them, I just don't know what to do with myself. I scared of being happy because like the rest of my members, I too have not had a day without worry and crappy news. I have not had a day where I went "everything was great today, nothing was out of the blue or depressing" infact, when I have days like these, I purposely sabotage them to give myself that peace of mind. Like for example, I had a good day at work, but I would start to get a little suspicious and sabotage it by watching 3 hours worth of netflix or procrastinating, that way I always say to myself, "atleast today's worth of bad was done and it was this little thing, not one major big thing" I do not have the mental capacity to deal with big negative news. I have to put my brave face on, be in denial for a really long time until the reality shakes me awake and floods of emotions are released. I have a huge exam coming up and while I am super underconfident for it, I am trying to stay afloat, but yet again comes my self sabotaging streak. It takes over my plans and goals and leaves me to beat myself up. Because the last time I was not so self destructive, I was hit to the curb by dengue and I was in alot of pain. I hope you get what I am trying to say. Feel free to write any solutions for me. 

3am Thoughts

hello world, 

the last time I wrote on this was a day before I put in my two weeks notice. I was hoping more people would comment on my post, but I'm happy that the one person that did ultimately gave me something to think about. 

do I really lack self-confidence..?
answer: yes, yes I absolutely freaking do. 

I've had it on my mind these last couple days and I've been thinking a lot. I've come to find out that I really do doubt myself a lot. I doubt my abilities. I'm scared to take a leap of faith for once. I give up on things before even starting them. I've been trying to work on it, but it's honestly a work in progress. I'm uhm trying, if you will. 

Update: I quit my job and Easter is almost over now. I had an okay Easter, I hope that whoever is reading this enjoyed it as well. I ended up going on a drive with my sister and we sat and talked about the normal. Life, family struggles/issues, boys who we probably shouldn't be falling for, school, etc. It was good to go and sit close (but far enough from) to the dam and just breathe and take a break from "life" for a little while. The only thing I wasn't looking forward to was coming back home and going back to the routine of "life". 

While at the dam, I had these nostalgic memories come back to me on this old friend I met when I was a junior in high school. I met up with him again last year after not seeing him for about 2-3 years. These memories eventually led to me re-reading old conversations between us and me missing him even more. I haven't spoken to him in about 4 months and I feel like I should reach out, but at the same time I feel like I'm just reaching out because I feel lonely or lost. At the same time though, I'd really love to catch up with him and see how he's doing and then from there I have no clue. He was truly my best friend and my sister also likes him very much lol. I just can't seem to make up my mind. 

...another thing to add to my list on things I need to work on...
- my list of things I need to work on:
1 - build up self-confidence 
2- work on indecisiveness 

(I wish I was kidding) 

I'm not that much happier, but at least I'm less sad than I was a couple days ago. I hope that who ever is reading this is doing fairly well and in case no one said anything, I love you and I'm proud of you. I hope you had a good Easter :)

- BM 



you never stopped whereas you ran,walked,fell,crawl. :) just be fuckin proud of yourself pal

Friends

Feel so left behind, like ill never catch up to the people I grew up with

Adulting

Depressed and sad... 
I broke up with a guy few days ago, and I'm not at all doing well.....its too difficult to get out of bed.. To do work, to make Myself motivated...you may say it's not a big deal breaking up, it's not a big deal to forget that person and it's too easy to move on....I'm trying harder to get out of this situation and keep myself motivated but It's not working...I'm not eating properly, not because I don't want to eat it's just I'm not eating because it's tough to eat, it's tough to take bath, it tough to talk to anyone, it's too tough to do anything.....I am totally aware of my situation but it's too difficult to implement.... I'm not feeling well,i don't feel like smiling,i don't feel like taking care of myself, I'm trying  harder but I'm not overcoming.....i don't know how to make you all understand of my situation but it's difficult...i don't want to live like this.. I want to get out this situation.... I don't deserve this.... Please help... :(

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