Been going through a rough patch. Just graduated from university and literally burdened with immense loans. Parents won't support. Going through a lot of stress and turmoil x

I'm sure everything will figure itself out 

Don't take stress. You are graduated now and capable of building your career yourself. You parents will definitely support you towards your success. Don't be over burdened, use your education to make success. 

Other

 I am 24 year old and my weight is about 45kg. I believe body shaming starts at home. In my case my  parents use to make me eat alot in hopes to gain waight. They took me to doctors, when I was completely healthy. Just to make me eat medicine to gain weight. I clearly remember once my friend at college asked me if i wore padded bra, that too in canteen. I was furious and maintained distance with those girls. I lost friends. Then whenever we went shopping, eveyone is like i should take size "extra small" and maybe it will be lose  for me. Current situation is my parents think i will not get a good match for arranged marriage just because i am too skinny. 

Family

i wish i can just run away from all my problems 😔life as a teenager is like life as a ugly dog no one wants . there’s a saying that goes “Going away won’t change anything if you’re running from yourself” and thats literally the truth . 


Depression

I WANT TO DROWN MYSELF UNTIL I D!E

I am just fascinated by life, it's both beautiful and miserable at the same time.

Life

how do I start going to the gym again?

Confusion

I am functioning on high-level stress and anxiety. My brain is going to die. I just want to leave my parents' house. So sick of staying here!

Stress

I feel amazing at Now&Me, working with the team, being a part of it, and being a part of a bigger change. It gives me immense pleasure to do the work I do with Now&Me. Talking to people and interacting with my team make my day, they keep me motivated and on my toes. There is no greater happiness for me right now than taking this forward. I am just having a great time and I am truly happy. I am just genuinely happy while working, and I haven't enjoyed anything as immensely as I do working with Now&Me except for writing and poetry. 

Motivation

I'm in a relationship still i feel lonely.
We don't go on dates often
Hardly meet once a month.
He only calls when he have time or it's convenient for him to do so.
For some work purpose we went to same place but with different people.
I waited to meet him but then I see a text saying he didn't stay after it was too hot . The next day I saw him but he says he didn't see me.The next day he happened to be there so he talked for time and left. My friends asked me i was excited to see him what happened i didn't know what to say.
He still follows girls he used to like on Instagram but says they're like sisters.
I confronted him he didn't take my words seriously said I'm stupid and overthinking and this is nonsense.
I never did this to him when he confronted something to me i tried to fix it cause even if that ain't a big deal for me cause it's been bothering him or hurting him.
I love him but I don't understand what to do.


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